Monday, May 31, 2010

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before going to school:
Kelly: asan ka na? late na 2:50 na ha.bilisan mo kasi yung birthcertificate di makakapag-enroll yung bata.
3:25 TIME
Kelly: Hey irre(as in irresponsible)Paolo asan ka na?
after 5 minutes.
Paolo: kakaout ko lang e long call kasi,pde bang to follow na lang yung birth certificate?
( kung di ba nman tanga malalate pala cia sana nagtext ng maaga na mag-oovertime cia para di na kami lumakad)
Kelly: ok cge ask ko kung pde.( try to compose herself)

After an hour pagkaenroll.
Kelly: uy pautang nga ng 500 balik ko rin mamaya para makabili na ko ng uniform,di ako nakapag withdraw e haba ng pila kanina.
Paolo: next week mo na ienroll
Kelly: naienroll ko na,pambayad lang ng uniform
Paolo: wala akong pera
Kelly: 500 lang wala kang pera?babayaran ko nman mamaya pagkawithdraw
Paolo: wala pa kong sweldo
( sus sweldo nila 13 and 28 wala lang siguro talagang pera nahuthut na ng nanay at babae nya.^_^)

haist,he never change,isa pa ring dakilang parasite.

20 questions


Twenty Questions ni Juan Ekis

gusto mo ba ng mga storya ng pag-ibig? yung kakaiba ang tirada sa tema? eto basahin mo.

matutuwa ka Ü

This play won in the palanca awards, dulaang isang yugto category (daw). Twenty Questions Ni Juan Ekis

MGA TAUHAN

Jigs: Fresh grad. Kabarkada ni Yumi. Magtatrabaho bilang researcher sa isang financial firm

Yumi: Commercial Model. Kabarkada ni Jigs. 2 years ahead kay Jigs.

TAGPO

Gabi. Sa isang kwarto ng isang beach resort. Naglalatag ng kumot si Jigs sa sahig habang inaayos ni Yumi ang kanyang higaan.

YUMI: Sige na, Jigs. Huwag ka nang magpaka-gentle man. Naaawa ako sa¹yo e. Tabi na tayo sa kama.

JIGS: Hindi, okay lang ako dito.

YUMI: Huwag ka nang maarte. As if naman re-rapin kita no. Malaki naman itong kama e. Hatiin na lang natin sa gitna.

JIGS: Sure ka?

YUMI: Hindi mo naman siguro ako mamanyakin no?

JIGS: (Matatawa) Okay ka lang?

YUMI: Kung gusto mo, gamitin na lang natin iyang kumot na divider.

JIGS: Good idea.

Isasampay nila ang kumot mula sa kisame para mahati ang kama sa gitna. Magsesettle down ang dalawa. Ilalabas ni Jigs ang libro niya: ³Puppy Love and other Stories² ni F. Sionil Jose. Si Yumi naman ay magpapatugtog ng Japanese Zen Music habang nagsa-zazen.

YUMI: Do you mind?

JIGS: No, go ahead. I¹m just reading.

Magsa-zazen si Yumi. Magbabasa si Jigs. Pareho silang di maka-concentrate. Papatayin ni Yumi ang CD player niya.

YUMI: I can¹t believe our friends.

JIGS: Oo nga e.

YUMI: Dapat ginagawa nila eto sa mga bagong pasok sa barkada o kaya sa bagong...ay oo nga pala. Bagong graduate ka. Congrats.

JIGS: Thanks.

YUMI: So what¹re your plans?

JIGS: Kinukuha akong researcher sa ADB. Kinukuha rin ako ng BPI sa OTP nila.

YUMI: Wow naman. In demand.

JIGS: Di naman masyado. Who the hell invented this tradition anyway?

YUMI: (Matatawa) You won¹t believe it.

JIGS: Ikaw?

YUMI: Malay ko ba na mabibiktima rin ako nito balang-araw.

JIGS: So why did you start it?

YUMI: Wala ka pa sa tropa nun e. Freshman ka pa lang siguro noon. Wala lang. Napagtripan lang namin si Ronald. E may crush siya kay Meg. Noong unang beses magpunta rito ng barkada, sabi ko, magsimula kami ng tradition. Ilo-lottery namin ang pangalan ng mga lalaki at ng mga babae. Kung sino ang mabubunot, silang dalawa ang pagsasamahin sa isang kwarto sa loob ng tatlong araw. And then, we¹ll all see what happens. Pero dinaya namin noon yung kay Ronald at Meg. Puro Ronald at Meg ang mga pangalan na nakalagay sa lottery.

JIGS: (Tatawa) Ang sama ninyo!

YUMI: Kaya nga nakarma na ako e.

JIGS: So is our case, dinaya? O talagang lottery?

YUMI: (Teasing) Ano sa dalawa ang gusto mo?

JIGS: Feeling ko may nagtrip sa¹kin sa barkada e.

YUMI: Excuse me po, dalawa tayong biktima dito. I don¹t see any reason kung bakit tayong dalawa ang sasadyaing biktima this year, unless may crush ka sa¹kin na di ko alam at alam nila (tatawa).

JIGS: Baka ikaw (tatawa).

YUMI: The success rate of this tradition is 100% so far.

JIGS: I was here na the 2nd time. Si Chris at si Cia ang biktima.

YUMI: And last year were Rod and Kay. They¹re getting married kailan? Sa June yata.

JIGS: What do you expect? Ikukulong mo ang isang lalaki at isang babae sa isang kwarto for three days, imposibleng walang mangyari doon!

YUMI: That was exactly my point. (Ngingiti)

JIGS: E kung may madisgrasya?

YUMI: Ano¹ng disgrasya?

JIGS: Alam mo na yun!

Hahawiin ni Yumi ang divider nilang kumot.

YUMI: Ano? Sex? Pa¹no kung magsex sila? Nakakatawa ka naman. Di mo masabi.

JIGS: Ang alin?

YUMI: Ang sex!

JIGS: Hah!

YUMI: Sige nga sabihin mo nga?

JIGS: Para kang tanga. Tumigil ka nga.

YUMI: Shet, Jigs. Graduate ka na totoy ka pa rin!

JIGS: Excuse me?

YUMI: Sabihin mo nga: ³Sex! Sex! Sex! Sex!²

JIGS: Para kang bata, Yumi ha.

YUMI: You used to call me ate Yumi when you were in third year.

JIGS: Well, graduate na po ako, ate Yumi.

Tahimik.

JIGS: Hmmm. I wonder if we¹re gonna last three days.

YUMI: (Teasing) Bakit? Ayaw mo sa¹kin?

Di sasagot si Jigs.

YUMI: We¹re gonna survive this one.

JIGS: What makes you so sure?

YUMI: No offense, Jigs. I honestly find you very attractive pero I¹ve no time for this. Alam mo naman siguro na kaka'

JIGS: Same here.

YUMI: Same here what? Na you find me attractive o you don¹t have time for this? (Matatawa)

Di sasagot si Jigs. Tahimik. Io-on ulit ni Yumi ang CD player at ipagpapatuloy ang zazen. Itatabi ni Jigs ang libro. Nawalan na siya ng ganang magbasa. Pupunta siya sa ref. Bubuksan niya ito.

JIGS: Hah! (Sarcastic) Perfect! Red Wine! How very conducive.

YUMI: May chips ba diyan?

JIGS: Sa awa ng Diyos, may tsibog naman.

Papatayin ni Yumi ang CD player. Tatayo siya at kukuha ng chips sa ibabaw ng ref.

YUMI: Since we¹re gonna be stuck naman with each other for three days, might as well make the best out of it di ba? I-enjoy na lang natin.

JIGS: What do you mean?

YUMI: Get the wine, let¹s have a drink! 50 hours to go na lang and we¹re gonna be the first failure of this tradition.

JIGS: Oo nga. (Kukunin ang wine. Maglalagay sa dalawang baso.) When they chose Cia and Chris, naiintindihan ko pa e. Lalo na sina Rod and Kay. Kung baga, tinulungan lang natin silang umamin sa isa¹t isa. Pero us...

YUMI: Weird ng barkada natin no?

JIGS: To our barkada and our weird traditions!

YUMI: To us, the first failure of this tradition!

Magto-toast sila at iinom.

JIGS: Sige, ate Yumi. Let¹s make our stay here more interesting...

YUMI: What¹s with the ate?

JIGS: Fine...

Bubuksan ni Yumi ang chips. Uupo sila pareho sa sahig para magkwentuhan.

JIGS: Let¹s play twenty questions.

YUMI: Sige! Ano yon?

JIGS: Each of us will have ten questions each. Tatanungin kita, tatanungin mo ako, mga gusto nating malaman sa isa¹t isa. Alternate tayo. Pero the thing here is, you can¹t ask the question that I already asked.

YUMI: That¹s pretty interesting.

JIGS: At bawal magsinungaling.

YUMI: Fair enough. Pero whatever is said inside this room remains in the room. Ok?

JIGS: Of course. You wanna start?

YUMI: No. I want to ask the last question. (Ngingiti at kikindatan si Jigs)

JIGS: Smart move. Game. First question: Ano ang greatest frustration mo sa buhay?

YUMI: Nge. Ang korni naman ng tanong mo. Walang ka-challenge-challenge. Ask me something na mag-iisip naman ako.

JIGS: Simula pa lang e.

YUMI: Sige. Ano nga ba...?

JIGS: Akala ko ba walang ka-challenge-challenge?

YUMI: Wag kang maingay, nag-iisip ako...I¹m a frustrated ballet dancer.

JIGS: Talaga?

YUMI: I took lessons when I was six pero umayaw ako. Wala kasi akong disiplina e. Mas gusto kong makipaglaro sa mga kalaro ko. Pero I really enjoy watching ballet dancers. When I see them dance parati kong naiisip na sana, ako rin. There! Ang dali naman ng tanong mo. Walang thrill.

JIGS: Appetizer lang. Yari ka sa¹kin mamaya.

YUMI: We¹ll see. Ako naman: Did you ever have doubts about your sexuality? I mean, kahit minsan ba, naisip mo na bakla ka?

JIGS: Never.

YUMI: Bilis ng sagot a.

JIGS: Coz I never entertained the idea.

YUMI: Homophobe ka ba?

JIGS: Alternate tayo sa tanungan, di ba?

YUMI: So, not once? Kahit konti? Kahit what if lang?

JIGS: I¹m straight, okay?

YUMI: I¹m not asking if you¹re gay or not. I¹m asking kung...

JIGS: Never nga.

YUMI: We all thought na you were gay. Well at least nung first few months mo sa tropa before you introduced your girlfriend to us.

JIGS: What?! You thought I was gay?!

YUMI: E pa¹no kasi, masyado kang mabait. Ang pogi-pogi mo, pero parang allergic ka sa mga babae. Over ang pagiging gentleman mo. Too good to be true. You have a good body, it seems that you work out pero iniisip namin front mo lang yun. Kadalasan kasi front ng mga bakla ang pagiging maganda ng katawan nila at pagiging sporty...

Tatawa lang si Jigs.

YUMI: So we thought it¹s either that or you were planning to become a priest.

JIGS: What?!

YUMI: Well, you were always this goody-goody person. Pumupunta ka sa chapel. Nangungumpisal, nagsisimba...

JIGS: The way you said it, parang equivalent ang dalawa a.

YUMI: Of course not. I didn¹t mean that!

JIGS: I take my faith seriously. That doesn¹t make me gay!

YUMI: So you did want to become a priest...

JIGS: Hindi rin. Actually, I always wanted to raise a family...and be a father.

Tahimik.

YUMI: So you¹re not gay.

JIGS: No.

YUMI: You never...

JIGS: Ilang beses ka ba ipinanganak? Kulit mo e. It¹s my turn.

YUMI: Homophobe ka no?

JIGS: Hindi kaya!

YUMI: Whatever...

JIGS: Ako na, daya mo naman e.

YUMI: Okay, okay. Shoot me.

JIGS: How do you see yourself five years from now?

YUMI: You expect to win this game? Ang kokorni ng mga tanong mo e.

JIGS: The object of this game is not to win.

YUMI: E ano pa ba?

JIGS: To get to know the other person.

YUMI: Sure. Basta ako, I will win this game. Walang thrill ang isang game kung walang nananalo.

JIGS: Sagot.

YUMI: May time limit ba to? (Tatawa) Wine pa nga.

JIGS: Sabi nga nila: in vino veritas.

Magsasalin si Jigs ng wine.

YUMI: Masarap ang wine, ha? Saan kaya nabili ito? (Iinom) To answer your question, either maging entrepreneur ako, magsisimula ako ng sarili kong botique or bar, o kaya, magiging artista ako sa pelikula.

JIGS: Not bad.

YUMI: Pero mukhang malabo yung stint ko sa movies. Tough ang competition e. Saka mahina ang manager ko. Panay hosting at pictorials ang nakukuhang raket para sa akin. Papalitan ko na nga e. Pag nakaipon ako, baka magtayo na lang ako ng botique.

JIGS: (Magbibiro) Ayaw mo mag-bold?

YUMI: Yuck!

JIGS: Lahat ng gustong mag-artista doon dumadaan.

YUMI: May talent naman ako kahit papano a!

JIGS: Lahat naman ng bold star may talent a! Sa dibdib! (Tatawa)

YUMI: (Hahampasin ng unan si Jigs) Bastos ka talaga! Akala ko goody-goody ka...Hindi ko papatulan ang pagbobold kahit ano¹ng mangyari no! Kahit ganito ako, may respeto pa rin naman ako sa sarili ko.

JIGS: Ganito? Ano¹ng ganito?

Di sasagutin ni Yumi ang tanong.

YUMI: These producers think all the people want is sex, sex, sex! Kaya puro basura ang mga pelikula e. Wine pa nga!

JIGS: (Magsasalin ng wine) Bakit naman botique?

YUMI: Hoy madaya ka na ha? Hindi pa ako lasing. Ako na¹ng magtatanong. Ang korni mo namang magtanong. Bigatan naman natin nang konti...Inom ka muna.

Iinom si Jigs. Magsasalin siya ng bago.

YUMI: Who was your first crush in the barkada?

Tahimik.

YUMI: Haha! Bingo ka no? Bagal mo naman sumagot.

Iinumin ang wine. Magsasalin ng bago.

JIGS: Lalaki o babae?

Tatawa sila pareho.

YUMI: Dapat may time limit ito e.

Tahimik.

JIGS: Hirap naman ng tanong mo.

YUMI: Iyon nga ang maganda e. Para may thrill. As if naman ibo-broadcast ko sa barkada kung sino.

JIGS: Wine pa?

YUMI: Di mo pa sinasagot yung tanong ko, nagtatanong ka na!

Magsasalin ng wine si Jigs kay Yumi.

JIGS: Yung crush ko kasi...siyempre, sino pa ba? E di yung pinakamaganda sa barkada.

YUMI: Nge. Subjective yon no! Para sa¹kin ang pinakagwapo si Joel. Sa babae, si Kay. Para kay Ronald, si Meg...

JIGS: Yung literally na may dating'walang tanung-tanong. Yung kahit sino¹ng tanungin mo sa tropa, objectively, siya ang isasagot.

YUMI: Jigs, twenty questions ang game natin. Hindi guessing game. C¹mon man. Play your own game. Pa¹no na kung truth or dare to e di pahirapan na. Dadalawa na nga lang tayo e.

JIGS: Yung commercial model.

Matitigilan si Yumi.

YUMI: Wine pa nga.

Magsasalin si Jigs. Mag-iisip si Yumi. Iinom. Biglang matatawa.

YUMI: (Tumatawa pa rin) Talaga?

JIGS: Sige, pagtawanan ba?

YUMI: You can say it to my face, I won¹t bite. Bakit hirap na hirap kang sabihin kung sino? Takot kang ma-reject? Parang tanong lang e...Wine pa nga!

JIGS: Okay, 1 point ka na...

YUMI: (Ngiti) Gee...thanks. Flattered naman ako. At kailan naman nangyari ito?

JIGS: Sorry, my turn to ask. (Ngingiti) Who is your crush in the barkada...NOW?

YUMI: E ginaya mo lang yung tanong ko e.

JIGS: Hinde no. May qualifier ako. Ang sabi ko, NOW. Ang tanong mo, first crush ko.

YUMI: Korni pa rin. Alam mo, kung basketball OEto, tambak ka na.

JIGS: Just answer the question.

YUMI: Siyempre wala. I told you, I don¹t have time for these stuff. Kakabreak ko lang di ba?

JIGS: Korni mo namang sumagot.

YUMI: E korni yung tanong e. Pero kung talagang-talagang kailangan kong sumagot...hmmm...teka...sino nga ba? Sino ba¹ng crush material sa barkada? Wala akong maisip e. Ikaw na lang.

JIGS: Yung seryoso naman.

YUMI: Seryoso ako. Ayaw mo yata e. Sige, iba na lang...

JIGS: E napipilitan ka lang e.

YUMI: Uy! Pa¹no ba¹yan? MU na tayo? Crush mo ko, crush kita...yiheee (Tatawa).

JIGS: Dati pa yon no!

YUMI: Ay? Di mo na ko crush? Bakit, na turn-off ka? Ano namang ginawa ko? Tsk. Tsk.

JIGS: Is that your question na?

YUMI: Oy, hinde! Ito naman...di ba pwedeng mag-follow-up?

Iinom ng wine si Jigs.

YUMI: Fine. Here¹s a little juicy question: Describe your first kiss.

JIGS: That¹s not even a question.

YUMI: Arte mo. O: How was your first kiss like?

Matatawa si Jigs.

JIGS: Wet.

YUMI: Yuck!

Magtatawanan sila.

JIGS: Alam mo, aksidente yung first kiss ko. Close kasi kami nung isa kong kaibigan. Pag naggu-goodbye ako sa kanya, parati ko siyang kini-kiss sa noo. E one time, sa gym habang nagpapahinga, nakaupo siya sa sahig. Tinatamad siyang tumayo. So bumaba ako nang konti para halikan siya sa noo kasi pauwi na ako. E siya naman, para maabot ko, medyo tumingala. E sakto, sa lips ko siya nahalikan. Pareho kaming nagulat. Pero di pa kami naghiwalay agad. Weird nga ang feeling e. Parang may glue. Ayaw na namin maghiwalay pareho...

Tawa pa rin si Yumi

YUMI: Awww. Ang sweet naman. Parang sa pelikula. Si Krissy ba OEto?

JIGS: Hindi. Hindi mo siya kilala.

YUMI: So what happened? Nagkatuluyan kayo?

JIGS: Nope.

YUMI: Ha?

JIGS: Ewan ko ba. Complicated kasi yung situation namin e. May boyfriend siya noon. Ako naman, takot pa sa isang relationship. Pero at least, na-discover namin na pareho pala kaming may gusto sa isa¹t isa. Pero hanggang doon na lang.

YUMI: What happened after?

JIGS: We talked about it. We both decided na it wont work. Tapos, bigla na lang, hindi na kami nagkikita. And then, I met you guys, iba na ang barkada ko.

YUMI: Nakakatuwa naman.

JIGS: Ikaw, pa¹no yung first kiss mo?

YUMI: Ikaw ang nagturo sa akin ng game na ito di ba? Bakit ba lagi mong bini-break ang rules? Di mo na pwedeng tanungin yan!

JIGS: Tine-testing ko lang kung lasing ka na. (Iinom ng wine) Okay, naka-warm-up na ako: What was the naughtiest thing you ever did?

YUMI: Yan ang mga tanong! Ano ba¹ng ibig mong sabihin ng naughty?

JIGS: Bahala kang mag-define.

YUMI: Hmmm...marami e...(matatawa) baka maeskandalo ka.

JIGS: Kanina ayaw mo ng korni. Ngayong medyo exciting naman...

YUMI: Eto na...I had two boyfriends at the same time.

JIGS: (Nagulat) Hala.

YUMI: I was with Joel and Zach at the same time.

JIGS: Yikes. Alam ba ni Joel?

YUMI: Kaya nga kami naghiwalay nun e. Nahuli ako (matatawa).

JIGS: Ano namang pumasok sa kukote mo¹t ginawa mo yon, aber?

YUMI: Nag-eexperiment lang ako. E sa type ko sila pareho e. Ano¹ng magagawa ko? Saka para may thrill. Alam mo yon? Yung patago kang nakikipag-date sa isa para di mahuli. Everyday pa akong nakakalibre, kasi, alternate sila! (Tatawa) Akala n¹yo kayo lang mga lalaki ang pwedeng gumawa no¹n?

JIGS: How can you love two guys at the same time?

YUMI: Who said something about love? Walang kinalaman ang love dun. I was...having fun!

JIGS: Nainlove ka na ba, ever?

YUMI: Nakakailang tanong ka na? It¹s my turn.

JIGS: Don¹t you want to answer the question anyway?

YUMI: My turn!

JIGS: Kulang ka pa sa wine. (Tatawa)

Ubos na ang unang wine bottle. Kukuha si Jigs ng isa pa sa ref.

JIGS: Ang bilis nating uminom a.

YUMI: Are you still a virgin?

JIGS: Whoa! Where did that come from?

YUMI: That¹s my fourth question.

JIGS: (Magsasalin ng wine sa mga baso). Ano sa tingin mo?

Ngingiti si Jigs. Tititigan lang siya ni Yumi.

YUMI: Don¹t tell me, wala pang nangyayari sa inyo ni Krissy hanggang ngayon? Ilang taon na ba kayo?

JIGS: Mag-tu-two years na sana next week.

YUMI: So virgin ka pa? I don¹t believe it!

JIGS: Mukha ba akong tarantado?

YUMI: Mukha kang nagpapaiyak ng babae e.

JIGS: Insulto ba yon?

YUMI: Compliment OEyon, tanga.

JIGS: Ah, okay. Thanks.

YUMI: Pero, you mean, you never felt the urge to do it?

JIGS: Alin? Sex?

YUMI: Wow! Nasabi rin niya!

JIGS: Of course I always feel it. Natural lang OEyon sa tao no? Nasa iyo na lang OEyan kung ano¹ng gagawin mo sa urge na yon.

YUMI: E natural naman pala e. Bakit mo pinipigilan? I mean, pag naiihi ka, iihi ka. Pag nagugutom ka, kakain ka. Pareho lang OEyon, di ba?

JIGS: Pag naiihi ka, iihi ka dahil kailangan mong umihi. At hindi ka iihi kahit saan. Pupunta ka sa banyo. Pag nagugutom ka, kakain ka dahil kailangan. At hindi mo kinakain ang lahat ng pagkain na ihain sa iyo. Pag di ka gutom, di ka kakain. Pag di mo gusto yung pagkain, di mo gagalawin. Ang aso, pag may nakitang pagkain diyan, walang tanung-tanong. Lalamon yan.

YUMI: And sex is the same?

JIGS: Lahat ng bagay, nilalagay sa lugar. May context. At least, yun ang nagpaiba sa atin sa aso.

YUMI: Grabe ka namang magsalita. Para mo na ring sinabing lahat ng nakikipagsex, aso ah!

JIGS: Sinasabi ko lang, pag wala sa tamang konteksto, mali.

YUMI: And what is that context?

JIGS: Matanda na tayo. Ayokong maging preachy. Alam na natin OEyan.

Tahimik.

JIGS: Kaso, kahit alam na natin, minsan di pa rin natin ginagawa.

Tahimik.

JIGS: Masarap e. Sino ba¹ng ayaw nun?

Tahimik.

YUMI: (Medyo nairita) So feeling mo santo ka at dapat kang i-congratulate for being a virgin!

JIGS: Sinasabi ko lang ang pinaniniwalaan ko. Ineexplain ko lang kung bakit di ko ginagawa. May kanya-kanya tayong dahilan. Di ko pinipilit kahit kanino ang mga paniniwala ko...No need to get so cross about it, Yumi.

Tahimik.

JIGS: It¹s not about being a virgin or not. It¹s about putting things into their proper places.

YUMI: I¹m not arguing with you.

JIGS: Me neither. I¹m just answering your questions.

Matagal na katahimikan.

Ngingiti si Jigs. Titignan niya si Yumi na medyo nairita sa nakaraang train of conversation nila. Magsasalin siya ng wine para kay Yumi.

JIGS: Nasobrahan ka na yata sa wine e. (Tatawa) You still wanna go on with the game? Nine pa lang tayo, eleven more to go. (Ngingiti)

YUMI: Shoot me.

JIGS: Who was your first lay?

YUMI: (Hahampasin ng unan si Jigs) Ang bastos mo talaga! So inaassume mo na hindi na ako virgin?

JIGS: E sabi mo kasi, walang thrill ang game pag walang nananalo e. So I guess I¹m winning. Saka wala naman akong inimply na ganun a! I¹m just hitting two birds with one stone. Kasi kung virgin ka, e di simple lang ang sagot: wala. Kung hindi naman, e di sino?

YUMI: Ang daya mo.

JIGS: Akala ko ba ayaw mo ng korning tanong.

YUMI: You think I¹ll answer that after giving your sermon, Father Jigs?

JIGS: Ano ka ba? Inexplain ko lang yung personal reasons ko. Kung ano man ang sa iyo, I¹ll respect them as well as I know you respect mine. I¹m no saint. I¹m just trying to get to know you better. (Ngingiti)

YUMI: How do you do that?

JIGS: Alin?

YUMI: I should have walked out on you kanina pa pero the way you say things...parang bumabaliktad sa¹yo...makes you more...charming. Kung ibang tao ka siguro, di na kita kakausapin.

JIGS: You can¹t walk out. We¹re locked here for three days except for meals.

YUMI: So I¹m forced to like you para di masira ang vacation ko. (Ngingiti)

JIGS: You don¹t have to answer my question if you don¹t want.

YUMI: I guess I¹ll be honest with you as you were honest with me...

Tahimik. Iinom ng wine si Yumi.

YUMI: Di mo siya kilala. His name was Robert. He was my first boyfriend. It was Senior Prom Night. Alam mo na...typical senior prom story. Everyone wants to lose it on prom night. Everyone thinks na pag prom night, it was something special. We went out sa hall nang maaga. We made out sa kotse niya. One thing led to the other. Tapos, yun...yun na. We went back just in time for the awarding of the prom queen. Guess what, I won pa. (Mahinang tawa)

JIGS: What was it like?

YUMI: Now that I look back, it isn¹t as special as I thought it was. Pero it was different then. Back then, we were just led by our passions. Alam mo yon? Andun ka na. Hormones raging wild. Passions and Ideals are confused. Akala mo love, yun pala, curious ka lang pala. Akala mo yun na yon. Akala mo you are in-love at lahat ng gawin mo tama. Lahat ng gawin mo perfect. Everything was magical...well, almost.

JIGS: Almost...?

YUMI: Sa next question mo na yan. Ako na.

JIGS: (Pabiro) Wine pa? Kulang ka pa yata e.

YUMI: Nilalasing mo ko no? May balak ka sa¹kin no? (Tatawa)

JIGS: Is that your question? Sasagutin ko na. (Tatawa)

YUMI: Engot. Hindi yon. Here¹s something na curious lang ako. Kasi I¹ve been hearing things...saka you¹ve hinted on it na rin kanina...Are you still with Krissy?

JIGS: Hindi na.

YUMI: Since when?

JIGS: Two, maybe three weeks ago?

YUMI: Sino¹ng nakipag-break?

JIGS: Pareho kami.

YUMI: Why?

JIGS: Maraming dahilan, actually. Naisip na lang namin na it won¹t work. Isa na do¹n, magkaiba kami ng gustong mangyari sa buhay. Magkaiba kami ng mga pinaniniwalaan.

YUMI: Like what?

JIGS: Marami.

YUMI: At ngayon mo lang nalaman iyon after two years with her?

JIGS: People change, Yumi.

Tahimik.

JIGS: Right before graduation, she asked me to move in with her.

YUMI: Talaga?

JIGS: Sabi niya, doon na naman din daw papunta ang relasyon namin. Might as well practice na raw for the real thing. Tutal, she¹s working na naman, ako naman bagong graduate, we should try out na raw living together if it¹ll work for us.

YUMI: Natakot ka sa arrangement?

JIGS: Hindi naman sa natakot. If you love someone, ano pa¹ng ikakatakot mo, di ba?

YUMI: E bakit umayaw ka?

JIGS: It¹s just that, it¹s not my thing.

YUMI: Sabi na nga ba e, bakla ka no? Sinasayang mo ang opportunities! (Matatawa)

JIGS: Hindi ako oportunista. At lalong hindi ako bakla.

YUMI: Fine.

JIGS: Naisip ko lang na hindi pa pala ako handa sa mga ganitong bagay. Wala pa sa isip ko ang gano¹n. Na-shock siguro ako sa reality na iyon na nga ang next step sa relationship namin. I mean, two years of being together and knowing each other, we¹re practically ready to get married, if you know what I mean. Pero I realized, I¹m not ready for any of these. Narealize ko how immature I am. Na iba yung ideals ko two years ago sa ideals ko ngayon. I need to mature some more to get into this thing'I mean, getting married. Diyos ko, ilang taon lang ba ako...

YUMI: Maturity has nothing to do with age.

JIGS: But it has a lot to do with time.

Tahimik.

JIGS: So I thought, bakit kailangan ng practice mode? Ibig sabihin, pag sumablay kami, split na kami? Live like a couple minus the commitment? Pa¹no pag nawala na yung magic? Goodbye na?

Iinom ng wine si Jigs.

JIGS: Kung kasal na, kasal na. Wala nang practice. I think that¹s the real cowardice. Yung i-try muna natin kung it will work kasi takot kayo na baka hindi maging successful ang outcome. Saan na napunta ang excitement ng buhay? Kaya nga kayo in-love, para sabay kayong humarap sa totoong buhay, sa hirap at ginahawa, di ba? (Matatawa) Hindi yung pagpapraktisan muna ninyo para siguradong ginhawa lang.

Magkikibit-balikat lang si Jigs.

YUMI: Are you always like that?

JIGS: Like what?

YUMI: So cerebral in everything. Kahit pagdating sa relationships.

JIGS: Life is too precious para lang daanin sa trial and error.

Ngingiti si Jigs. Tahimik.

YUMI: So, No hard feelings?

JIGS: Friends pa rin kami. She still calls me up nga sa bahay e.

YUMI: That¹s nice.

JIGS: Kayo, bakit kayo nagbreak ni Carlo?

YUMI: That¹s your sixth na ha?

JIGS: Sure.

YUMI: Alam mo, ironic para sa akin yung break-up namin ni Carlo. And the funny thing was, it was about...sex. Uy, sa atin lang ito ha?

JIGS: Of course.

YUMI: Kasi nga, I was looking for that magic nga di ba? I wanted to be in a relationship na special naman. So of all the boyfriends I had, sa kanya lang ako walang sexual relationship. As in nag-aabstain talaga ako. Kasi parang naisip ko, para magkaroon naman ng meaning yung ³making love² di ba? Parang, dapat di mo parating ginagawa, at ginagawa mo lang when you are sincere with yourself and with your partner. So I was investing muna emotionally. And I was actually starting to care about him. Yung, hindi ko na iniisip yung sarili ko. Yung siya lang ang inaalala ko. Akala ko perfect na...

JIGS: Ano¹ng nangyari?

YUMI: Patunayan ko raw na mahal ko siya. Magbigay daw ako ng proof. Pagbigyan ko raw siya. Sabi ko sa kanya, hindi pa ba sapat na proof yon? Na I¹m saving myself for that right moment, that special moment between us? Alam mo¹ng ginawa? Nilayasan ako!

JIGS: You deserve someone better.

YUMI: Talaga!

YUMI: Isipin mo, kung kelan naman I grew tired of meaningless sex, when I¹m looking for the real thing, saka naman mawawala. Ang ironic ng buhay no?

JIGS: That¹s the way we must learn.

YUMI: Alam mo, kung tutuusin, never ko pang na-experience yung tunay na mag make-love. And I had to go all through those relationships para lang ma-realize yun. At least, ngayon, alam ko na ang hinahanap ko.

Iinom ng wine.

YUMI: Ikaw ba, importante sa¹yo na virgin ang mapapangasawa mo? How do you see virginity ba?

JIGS: Alam mo, di ko pa napag-isipan OEyan. Pero now that you¹ve mentioned it...It doesn¹t matter kung virgin ang mapangasawa ko o hindi. Of course I value virginity a lot. I treat it as the only real gift I could give to my wife to be. Imaginin mo na lang di ba, kung wife ko ang una ko. It¹s like the perfect wedding gift I could give to
her. Pero kung siya hindi na virgin, I wouldn¹t care. As long as mahal ko siya. Kasi I don¹t expect her to give me the same gift. I don¹t do something because I expect people to do the same to me. Ibigay niya sa akin ang sarili niya nang buong-buo, sapat na sa akin OEyon. Masaya na ako sa ganoon.

YUMI: (Mapapangiti si Yumi.) You know, that¹s the nicest thing I ever heard from a guy. That¹s why I always enjoy talking to you. You always say the nicest things.

JIGS: Wow. Salamat. E ikaw, is making love to you equal to love?

YUMI: I always took sex and love as opposite ideas. I mean, after the first time na...you know...sa Senior prom. Kasi afterwards, we broke up na ni Robert. Tapos naisip ko, yun na ba yung love? Baka hindi love yung naramdaman ko. Baka napagkamalan ko lang siyang love. I was just after the pleasure of intimacy. And then I felt empty. So empty. That¹s why I wanted to change. I wanted to believe in ³making love.² And I¹m still looking for it. Yung magic. Yung feeling mo, tao ka pala. I never felt that kahit isang beses. Men have penetrated my body but never my soul. And I wanted that. I wanted someone to touch my soul. To ³make love² to my soul through my body. Pero siguro, naging numb na¹ko sa dami ng relasyong pinagdaanan ko. Hindi ko alam kung mararanasan ko pa iyon. That¹s why I envy you.

Tahimik.

YUMI: Sa tingin mo may pag-asa pa ako?

JIGS: You still have your soul...(Ngingiti)

Tahimik.

YUMI: With whom would you want to experience it?

JIGS: Of course, sa asawa ko.

YUMI: I mean, someone in particular. Take it as my seventh question. So give a name.

JIGS: A name? Hindi ko alam. Basta kung sino ang magiging asawa ko.

Tahimik. Magkikibit-balikat si Yumi. Iinom ng wine.

JIGS: Well, I always thought na it was Krissy. And then, it was just gone. Of course I loved her. And I still do. Pero the magic was just gone after we both found out na magkaiba kami ng mga prinsipyo sa buhay.

Tahimik.

JIGS: My turn?

YUMI: Shoot me.

JIGS: Tell me something...a secret. Yung wala kahit isang nakakaalam.

Matagal na katahimikan.

JIGS: You trust me naman di ba?

YUMI: Well, you¹ve earned it, alright.

JIGS: Saka wala akong tinatago sa¹yo. Sinagot ko lahat ng tanong mo as honestly as I could. (Ngingiti)

YUMI: I uhm...

JIGS: Yes...?

YUMI: I need more wine.

Magsasalin si Jigs ng wine.

JIGS: Take your time. We have less than fifty hours to go.

Iinom ng wine si Yumi.

YUMI: I¹ll tell you something no one in the world knows except one other person. And that person probably forgot all about me already.

JIGS: (Pabiro) What? You had sex with a stranger?

YUMI: Ano ka ba?

JIGS: Biro lang. Seryoso na.

YUMI: Promise ha? Hindi ito lalabas.

JIGS: Promise.

YUMI: If this goes out, I will hunt you kahit sa libingan mo. Huhukayin kita at papatayin kita ulit.

JIGS: Mamatay man ako ngayon.

YUMI: Okay...(Pause) I...I was with Joel then... (Magiging mas seryoso ang tono niya) ...and Zach. I wasn¹t really with Zach, I was just going out with him pag wala si Joel, alam mo na...making out and stuff...Well, anyway, I was kinda serious din naman with Joel that time. Joel and I were...you know...doing it. And...

JIGS: And...?

YUMI: Uhm...I...uhm...I got pregnant.

JIGS: What?

Tahimik. Iinom ng wine si Yumi.

YUMI: I uhm...shit. Hindi ko naman talaga ginusto e. Uhm...Two months akong delayed...then I took that test. I found out na buntis nga ako...and Joel found out about Zach (maluha-luha na) and I didn¹t know what to say, you know? Maniniwala ba naman sa akin si Joel na naaliw lang ako kay Zach? Na I didn¹t really love him? Na wala lang iyon? And so he broke up with me and...I..uhm...I was afraid and uhm... (Magsisimula siyang magbreak-down)

JIGS: It¹s okay...

YUMI: I uhm...hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko, Joel left me. I wanted to tell him about the baby to make him come back but I don¹t think he¹d believe me after the thing with Zach...and...my parents are gonna kill me if...shit. (iiyak)

JIGS: (lalapit kay Yumi para i-console ito) Ssshhh...you don¹t have to tell me this if it upsets you...

YUMI: And so I went to a clinic...(hahagulgol) I didn¹t mean to, Jigs. I wasn¹t myself then. And I felt so afraid. So alone...

JIGS: Tahan na. Ssshhh...

Iiyak lang si Yumi kay Jigs. Yayakapin ni Jigs si Yumi.

JIGS: Alam ba to ni Joel?

YUMI: How can I tell him? The only other person na nakakaalam ay yung duktor sa clinic. God...(iiyak) Oh God...

JIGS: It¹s alright...

Hihimasin ni Jigs ang likod ni Yumi. Patatahanin niya ito. Matagal silang nakaganito lang.

Matagal na katahimikan.

YUMI: Can you get me my yosi?

Tatayo si Jigs. Pupunta sa may side table sa tabi ng kama. Kukunin ang Yosi ni Yumi. Magsisindi siya ng isa at iaabot kay Yumi.

YUMI: Thanks...

Matagal na katahimikan.

YUMI: If we were...if we were the last two people on earth, would you consider doing it with me?

JIGS: Doing what?

YUMI: Alam mo na...

JIGS: Alin? (Teasing ngingiti)

YUMI: Gago mo. (Ngingiti)

JIGS: Ngumiti rin.

YUMI: So? Would you?

JIGS: Alin nga? Di mo masabi no? Bakit di mo masabi? (Pagtatawanan si Yumi) Sabihin mo nga: Sex! Sex! Sex! Sex!

YUMI: Shut up nga!

JIGS: That¹s your eight na, ha?

YUMI: I lost count. Answer it.

JIGS: Why not?

Hihithit ng yosi si Yumi. Tahimik. Sasandal si Yumi sa balikat ni Jigs.

JIGS: If you could be something else, what would you be?

YUMI: I dunno...maybe a violin...yeah. Violin siguro.

JIGS: Bakit?

YUMI: I always saw the relationship of a violin and its player as very intimate. Pag tumutugtog ang violinist, ang nakikita ko at naririnig ko, he strokes the soul of the instrument and the instrument penetrates the soul of the player. Para silang nagmi-make love. Di ba? Very sexy, very intimate, very sublime. Di ba? Pareho silang sincere
sa isa¹t isa. Dahil kung hindi sila sincere, walang music na mabubuo. The violin surrenders her body to her player, her whole body and her whole soul, in full trust and sincerity. Di ba, compared to the sound of the other instruments, ang tunog ng violin parang isang naked woman? A naked woman in surrender? I want to be a violin. I want to be stroked in the soul. I want to make sincere music. I want to experience the sound of love.

Tahimik.

JIGS: Lalim nun ah. (Ngingiti)

YUMI: Pa¹no mo malalamang in-love ka na?

JIGS: Paano? I don¹t think there¹s a formula to that. Basta malalaman mo na lang. I mean, ilang beses lang ba nangyari sa akin yon? I¹d like to believe na yun na nga yon...yung kay Krissy...

YUMI: Kwento mo nga...paano mo narealize dati na mahal mo nga si Krissy?

JIGS: Alam mo nakakatawa...korni actually. Babalik na naman ako sa pagiging korni nito e. Di ba ayaw mo sa korni.

YUMI: Sige na. Hindi na kita aasarin.

JIGS: I heard bells.

YUMI: Ano?

JIGS: Seryoso. Bigla na lang, habang nag-uusap kami, may narinig na lang akong bells, tapos music. Ewan ko kung iniimagine ko lang yon pero yun ang nangyari. Nakakatawa nga e. Parang kanta ng Beatles.

YUMI: Seryoso ka ba?

JIGS: O baka naman nagkataon noong oras na yon, may nagkakantahan sa kung saan sa school. Basta may narinig akong bells. Tapos napangiti ako. Pagtingin ko sa mata niya, iba na ang nakikita ko. Hindi ko na siya nakita as kabarkada lang. Biglang parang may magic. Hindi ko ma-explain. Baduy pero ganun. Tapos I just seized the moment. Umamin ako. A week later, kami na.

YUMI: Korni nga. (Matatawa)

JIGS: Korni talagang pakinggan. Pero pag nandun ka na. Pag naranasan mo na, feeling mo, hindi na korni.

Ngingiti si Yumi. Tahimik.

YUMI: Alam mo, may times na parang tunog violin ang boses mo. O lasing lang ako?

Tahimik.

JIGS: I¹m into my last question.

Iaangat ni Yumi ang ulo niya.

YUMI: Shoot me. Better make it good.

JIGS: If you were again to be the next victim of this tradition, if you were to be locked up in this room again...who would you want the next guy to be?

YUMI: (Mag-iisip) I want someone whom I could talk to... Yung makukwentuhan ko ng mga sikreto ko. Yung may sense makipag-usap. Yung may laman. The violin player who¹d stroke my strings...not even. Yung mapapatunog niya ang strings ko without even touching them. (Tahimik) Lumuluwag na ang dila ko...kung anu-ano na ang nasasabi ko. (Ngingiti)

Tititigan lang ni Jigs si Yumi. Tahimik.

YUMI: Siyempre yung masarap kausap.

Tahimik. Hindi makatingin si Yumi.

YUMI: Yung kahit habambuhay wala kaming gawin kundi mag-usap... I think it¹s better than making love.

Mapapatingin si Yumi kay Jigs.

YUMI: Gosh I want to kiss you so badly.

Matitigilan siya.

YUMI: I can¹t believe I just said that.

Tahimik. Titignan niya ulit si Jigs.

YUMI: Don¹t you want to kiss me?

Pause. Titignan siya ni Jigs sa mata.

JIGS: Is that your last question?

HOW TO MOTIVATE ONESELF


Just as willpower is an essential factor in achieving success, at some point in time, discouragement and lack of motivation may hinder you from reaching your goal. And it is up to you, and you alone to devise techniques that will help you keep that drive within ablaze.

It is helpful to have visual goals. Whatever that is you are working towards, make it visual. It maybe something material like a car, or a vacation you have been looking forward to for the longest time. Take or cut out a picture of it and post it at a conspicuous place at work or at home where you can see it often. So that when you feel discouraged, this will remind you of your goal and will help you keep your focus.

Make a contract with oneself. According to motivational researches, people who write down to-do-lists are far more successful in achieving their intended goals than those people who just keep mental lists instead. Putting something in writing somehow makes it more powerful psychologically speaking. This may also be the reason why most cultures have such a high regard in honoring contracts. In the contract, you may also include a certain reward that you will give yourself once you have accomplished the task. After all, everyone likes to be rewarded for completing a good job. Even a simple pat on the back, “good job”, or “thank you” may do the trick to give the person the extra push to carry on, but unfortunately, these may not always be readily available. Considering that these are also essential in keeping oneself motivated, you must learn to find a way to get that encouragement on your own through rewarding yourself.

Abusive people lower your self-esteem and bring you down. Get these negative people out of your life. Surround yourself with positive people. Emulate their example. Smile amply and think happy thoughts. These will give you a brighter outlook and lets you see a clearer picture of what you really want and a fresh mind to know what steps to take to get there. Rather than wait for things to happen, try to be proactive and MAKE THINGS HAPPEN. Inactivity idles the brain and stagnates your potential to achieve your goals.

Read inspirational books and literature. These will help you improve your attitude and heal your mind. A book of success stories also proves to be encouraging. You will not only learn from others' experiences and derive confidence boosting insights from them but the story will be instrumental in motivating you to go for your goal and move ahead with your plans. If this still seems to falter, get training or education. Oftentimes, not knowing how or where to start is frustrating. Knowledge is power. Having a clear understanding of how and where to start is empowering and it will provide the extra drive needed to hit the mark you are aiming at and follow it through.

Having enumerated all these tips and tricks to attaining self-motivation, but still you seem to feel lacking that much needed drive, there is one last thing that you must try. Whatever it is that you have been meaning to do, or wanting to achieve, JUST DO IT! Keep on aiming high and go for it! Actually getting your hands dirty best solves the problem of motivation. By “forcing” yourself to just do it, your momentum will pick up slowly as you go along and before you know it you have finished the task or have finally achieved your goal. Divide and conquer is the key. Break down the seemingly insurmountable undertaking to small doable steps. Not only does it become less overwhelming, but seeing the "in the meantime" results will further your confidence that it can indeed be done.

Lack of motivation happens to us all, but if you do not encourage yourself to accept opportunities and be challenged, no one else will. It is most important to keep your eye on the goal, find ways to keep going, and in no time, you shall reap its benefits. And if at the beginning you were just doing it for the material reward, you will also learn to realize that the fulfillment, satisfaction and self-achievement you derive from reaching your goal is a much pleasurable high that will keep the drive within continually burning.

How to Motivate Yourself
A simple guide to getting back up after a tough figurative fall.

Steps

1. Think through a set of goals that sound as though they are what you want, and try to be specific. The key to most motivation remains setting goals, but you can't just pick any goals.

2. Make it general. Let's say you want a Corvette specifically, are you really saying you want a new car, or maybe just a car you can stop worrying about? Getting yourself to a reliable car is a goal that is easier to achieve and accomplishes the need you had from the get go. This is not copping out--no one needs a Corvette.

3. Do this with all of the goals you have, do not simply pick ones that sound good like most people pick New Year's resolutions. If the goals you set for yourself make your life easier or more rewarding, they are probably the type you need to focus on.

4. Cut pictures out of the car that you want, or the TV, stereo, golf clubs, whatever you are aiming for, and put them up somewhere you can see them every day. On the fridge door, or on the wall next to the computer. When you look say "That's my car" or "That's my TV". Visualizing these items as yours will help keep you motivated.

5. Anyone who has had serious issues with motivation knows that someone telling you to "stay motivated" is a bit daft, since you weren't in a motivated state to begin with, and as such, is hard to /stay/ in. However anyone can get themselves motivated.

6. Make your goals in the very beginning small. If you write out a long list of things that are really valuable for you to do, and then you mess one up, you're going back to starting at zero and you will likely feel pretty badly. Instead make a list for each day, and at first, only put down maybe 3 or 4 things, a set of activities that might take you 2 or 3 hours.

7. If you can do that, then a week later start adding things in about an hour at a time and build up. It's like doing pushups in the Army, the first day you get there and feel terrible because you can't keep up with the physical training, but you build up to it. Goals and mental attitudes are the same way. You have to make it a series of small steps. Don't set yourself up for failure by reaching too high at first. You can always reach higher the next week. There's no limit here, so pace yourself.

8. Rely upon yourself for the motivation and the drive. Other people do not have and will never have the same vested interest in your success. Motivation and success is a function of habit. You must break your bad habit of procrastination, and replace it with one of good planning. The most successful people in the world aren't always the brightest, or the best looking, but no matter what other talents or gifts they have been blessed with, they have underpinning their self esteem a series of victories over tasks both large and small. This is how you learn anything in school, gain confidence dating, and everything else in life.

9. Don't just think that you're the best, prove it to yourself. Your opinion matters the most in your own motivation, but you know when you're pulling your own leg as to your accomplishments. It's far easier to just start dealing with your responsibilities and knowing, with an incredibly strong epistemic justification (by which I mean, you KNOW this) that you can handle what comes up because you have before, than trying to know you can tackle it because you're all warm and fuzzy inside. Warm and fuzzy accomplishes very little, but neither does beating yourself up.

10. Reward yourself when you complete a part of your task, your mind will recognise this and you will want to do whatever you did to give yourself a treat more.

11. Get back up if you fall. Start again. Start where you are comfortable. Getting back up to try again, no matter how small that task, goal, activity, errand, or whim; If you can complete it, you are already back on your way. Get up, don't look back. Cheers!

Tips

· Focus yourself and your availability: your time and space management. If you can organize your time and work out something that will allow you to build on your motivation and do something to allow you to achieve your goals, you will actually get somewhere.

· That's about it. You are the one doing this. Whatever you accomplish, was your doing. Not this article or your mates who encouraged you, but yours. Don't brag, it makes you seem daft. Just keep going. You'll be amazed what you'll end up taking on and completing in short time

· Think about a time that you motivated yourself and saw the benefits.

· If you can imagine the end goal, in it's entirety and then focus on that image subconsciously your mind will figure out how to do it. So the more you believe it the easier it will be to motivate your self.

· You can provide yourself with an extra measure of motivation by using the Best Me Technique of self-hypnosis to pre-experience the rewards of a long-term goal, thereby reducing or eliminating the need for "will power."

Warnings

· There are things that will occur that you must do, studying for exams for instance. With any luck you will be reading this well before your exams, because you should be studying for your exams all semester... now shouldn't you? Procrastination is the opposite of motivation in our day to day lives. Remember, do a bit a day. When your exams come around you won't be sweating like everyone else. Now /that/ is positive reinforcement.

· Do not rely on thinking happy thoughts. Know that you can do it from experience.

· CONSULT YOUR MEDICAL PROFESSIONAL if this lack of motivation has been paired with feelings of depression, loneliness, bouts of crying, thoughts of hurting yourself or others, etcetera. Clinical Depression is a serious illness that results from chemicals in the brain being quite literally out of balance. Clinical Depression is treatable, many times it is not something which will follow you your whole life, and anyone who thinks it is can bugger off. It's your life, be careful with it, and seeing a doctor if you're the least bit concerned might cost a bit of coin, but could be priceless to have a professional talk to you, and see how he or she can help.

Things You'll Need

· Pen

· Paper

· Confidence In Yourself

· Motivation From Others (optional, but more encouraging)

Saturday, May 8, 2010

happy mothers daY!!!!






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spending mother's day with my gf and bf and of course with my one and only Paricce.
Thank you Gf for the gift and to Bf thank you for the effort i know how hectic your schedule is but still you manage to celebrate mother's day with me.Love you both!

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

happy birthday gf!!





i just recently met you but it seems to me that we've been friends for almost a decade already.^_^
you are my partner in crime when it comes to food and i really glad i met someone like you.
happy birthday my dearest girlfriend!
love you and I'll always be here with you.mwahh!