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how to love in a tech support way?

Tech Support: Yes, how can I help you?

Customer: Well, after much consideration, I've decided to
install Love. Can you guide me though the process?

Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?

Customer: Well, I'm not very technical, but I think I'm ready. What do I do first?

Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located your Heart?

Customer: Yes, but there are several other programs running now. Is it okay to install Love while they are running?

Tech Support: What programs are running?

Customer: Let's see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge and Resentment running right now.

Tech Support: No problem, Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love will eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High Self-Esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge and Resentment. Those programs prevent Love from being properly installed. Can you turn those off ?

Customer: I don't know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?

Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and Resentment have been completely erased.

Customer: Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?

Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades.

Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, "Error - Program not run on external components." What should I do?

Tech Support: Don't worry. It means that the Love program is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.

Customer: So, what should I do?

Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance; then click on the following files: Forgive-Self; Realize Your Worth; and Acknowledge your Limitations.

Customer: Okay, done.

Tech Support: Now, copy them to the "My Heart" directory. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming. Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from all directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.

Customer: Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files. Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?

Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but eventually everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and running. One more thing before we hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in turn share it with others and return some cool modules back to you.

Customer: Thank you, God.

love...(marriage)

This is a very good article. Those who are still single may learn something from here... Those who are already married or in a commitment may take it as a guideline to improve your marriage & relationship ...



DID I MARRY THE RIGHT PERSON?



During one of our seminars, a woman asked a common question. She said, "How do I know if I married the right person?" I noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so I said, "It depends. Is that your husband?" In all seriousness, she answered "How do you know?"



Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing on your mind.



Here's the answer. EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fell in love with your spouse/partner. You anticipated their call, wanted their touch, and liked their idiosyncrasies (unconventional behavior/habit) .



Falling in love with your spouse wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience. You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called "falling" in love... Because it's happening TO YOU.



People in love sometimes say, "I was swept of my feet." Think about the imagery of that __expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something came along and happened TO YOU.



Falling in love is easy. It's a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria (excitement) of love fades. It's the natural cycle of EVERY relationship. Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts.



The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.



At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking, "Did I marry the right person?" And as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else. This is when marriages or relationship breakdown. People blame their spouse/partner for their unhappiness and look outside their marriage/relationsh ip for fulfillment.



Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the most obvious. But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, excessive TV, or abusive substances.



But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies within it. I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else. You could.



And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later. Because (listen carefully to this):



THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN MARRIAGE/RELATIONSH IP IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON; IT'S LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND.



SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It'll NEVER just happen to you. You can't "find" LASTING love. You have to "make" it day in and day out. That's why we have the __expression "the labor of love." Because it takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it takes WISDOM. You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage/relationsh ip work. Sure true love can only happen after you've fallen out of love. When you begin choosing to love, even if you don't feel like doing it ---- that's true love. And that's the foundation of a lasting and strong marriage.





Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage.



Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships. Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your relationship WILL make your marriage stronger. It's a direct cause and effect. If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable. .. you can "make"love.



Love is indeed a "decision".. . Not just a feeling. You'll not just go away with your relationship just because the feeling is gone. In the Bible, love is a command. You make it happen.



Remember this always:



"God determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go." FW: Ruth Beltran



"Marriage is more than saying I Do. Marriage, like a precious plant, needs constant tending for it to grow, flourish, and bear fruti to last a lifetime, and beyond."-David and Evelyn Feliciano

Happy Birthday Pammie!!!

All of your friends are now wishing nothing but the best for you and likewise i will also do the same thing.^_^

Pero bubukuhin muna kita(vengeance at pinost mo yung pix ko).*evil laugh*





Di siya ganun kalakas kumain at pag gising sa umaga kailangan nya talaga ng kape,hindi pa magfufunction yung utak nya pag walang kape.

Para sakin walking dictionary sya lahat ng itanong ko sa kanya may answer talaga sya,at nung time na may kaaway ako sa blog sya yung taga-edit ng blog ko.^_*

May crush sya before na ngayun di sila magkasundo,para silang aso't-pusa na baka balang araw sila pa magkatuluyan.hahaha.(di ako nag name names)

Hindi siya yung tipo ng tao na magsasabi ng masama sa isang tao pero once na nasaktan mo sya isa lang ang sasabihin nya may karma din sya.

Minsan ko lang syang nakitang nagalit sa Enchanted kingdom yun.hahaha

At isang beses ko pa lang din syang nakitang umiyak at secret na yun.





ang konti ng pambubuko ko to be honest wala ka kasing masasabing pintas o mali sa tao na to e.all the goodness that the person have nasa kanya na.(wow!libre mo ko jan.hehehe)

I really admire her intelligence and kindness,like i said she never said or wished something bad sa mga taong nakasakit sa kanya.

Hindi siya yung tipo ng tao na who make up stories para lang iangat yung sarili nya or para lang malaman ng tao na ok sya.

she is really a true person,what you see is what you get.

walang arte,di mapili.

and ang pinakamagandang ugali nya,she always share.

Dahl sa kanya may mga kaibigan ako na talagang tinitreasure ko din ng todo at masasabi ko ding kaibigan ko talaga.

ANGELINE AND SUNSHINE,KRISTAL AND MARICAR,LEEGER AND NGAUN DON AND DARYLL.
We wish nothing but always the best because you deserve it.More patience pa.hehehe(alam mo na kung para saan yung patience)and sana pag dumating na yung special someone mo we all wish that he takes good care of you and sana kung sino man sya na dadating,sya na nga talaga yung makakasama mo forever and ever amen.^_*

You know how much you mean to me,i am nothing with you Pam.I love you and you are not only my Bestfriend,my sister but you are MY FAMILY,lahat ng plano ko sa buhay Pam hindi pde na hindi ka kasama.

Always remember that the last thing that i wannna do is to hurt you and andito ako para sau para iprotect ka and of course para suportahan ka sa mga gagawin mo sa buhay.Dito kami nila angeline and sunshine para sau and siguro sa tagal nyo ng magkakaibigan nila angeline at sa atin na dalawa din masasabi ko na wala na talagang makakasira ng friendship natin.

I love you and HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

the blame/the answer

the blame

If you see me walking the road with someone else
It's not because I like his company
It's because you're not brave enough to walk beside me.

If you hear me talking about him all the time
It's not because he pleases me
It's because you're too deaf to hear my heartbeat.

If you feel me falling with someone new
It's not because I love him
But because you're not there to catch me if I fall.

If you feel lost, I too am nowhere
I,too, don't know where the road is going.
Are we gonna cross each other's path
Or just completely turn around?
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound?

Don't let me walk with him
It's you I want to walk with.
Don't let me talk of him
It's you I want to talk with.
Don't let me fall for him
It's you I want to fall in love with.


The Answer

When you thought I wasn't brave enough to walk beside you
I was behind you every step of the way
Still filled with awe because of the beauty that stands before me.

When you thought I was too deaf to hear your heartbeat
I didn't want to assume anything
And I was afraid to loose our friendship.

When you thought I wasn't there to catch you
It was because you never gave me the chance
You never reached the bottom, you've already grabbed a branch.

If you feel like you are nowhere, I too am lost
I too don't know where the road is going.
Are we just going to turn around
Or are we gonna cross each other's path?
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound?

Don't let me walk alone
I want to walk by your side.
Don't let me talk of something else
It's you I want to talk with.
Don't let me fall for someone else
It's you I want to fall in love with.

20 questions

Twenty Questions ni Juan Ekis

gusto mo ba ng mga storya ng pag-ibig? yung kakaiba ang tirada sa tema? eto basahin mo.

matutuwa ka Ü

This play won in the palanca awards, dulaang isang yugto category (daw). Twenty Questions Ni Juan Ekis

MGA TAUHAN

Jigs: Fresh grad. Kabarkada ni Yumi. Magtatrabaho bilang researcher sa isang financial firm

Yumi: Commercial Model. Kabarkada ni Jigs. 2 years ahead kay Jigs.

TAGPO

Gabi. Sa isang kwarto ng isang beach resort. Naglalatag ng kumot si Jigs sa sahig habang inaayos ni Yumi ang kanyang higaan.

YUMI: Sige na, Jigs. Huwag ka nang magpaka-gentle man. Naaawa ako sa¹yo e. Tabi na tayo sa kama.

JIGS: Hindi, okay lang ako dito.

YUMI: Huwag ka nang maarte. As if naman re-rapin kita no. Malaki naman itong kama e. Hatiin na lang natin sa gitna.

JIGS: Sure ka?

YUMI: Hindi mo naman siguro ako mamanyakin no?

JIGS: (Matatawa) Okay ka lang?

YUMI: Kung gusto mo, gamitin na lang natin iyang kumot na divider.

JIGS: Good idea.

Isasampay nila ang kumot mula sa kisame para mahati ang kama sa gitna. Magsesettle down ang dalawa. Ilalabas ni Jigs ang libro niya: ³Puppy Love and other Stories² ni F. Sionil Jose. Si Yumi naman ay magpapatugtog ng Japanese Zen Music habang nagsa-zazen.

YUMI: Do you mind?

JIGS: No, go ahead. I¹m just reading.

Magsa-zazen si Yumi. Magbabasa si Jigs. Pareho silang di maka-concentrate. Papatayin ni Yumi ang CD player niya.

YUMI: I can¹t believe our friends.

JIGS: Oo nga e.

YUMI: Dapat ginagawa nila eto sa mga bagong pasok sa barkada o kaya sa bagong...ay oo nga pala. Bagong graduate ka. Congrats.

JIGS: Thanks.

YUMI: So what¹re your plans?

JIGS: Kinukuha akong researcher sa ADB. Kinukuha rin ako ng BPI sa OTP nila.

YUMI: Wow naman. In demand.

JIGS: Di naman masyado. Who the hell invented this tradition anyway?

YUMI: (Matatawa) You won¹t believe it.

JIGS: Ikaw?

YUMI: Malay ko ba na mabibiktima rin ako nito balang-araw.

JIGS: So why did you start it?

YUMI: Wala ka pa sa tropa nun e. Freshman ka pa lang siguro noon. Wala lang. Napagtripan lang namin si Ronald. E may crush siya kay Meg. Noong unang beses magpunta rito ng barkada, sabi ko, magsimula kami ng tradition. Ilo-lottery namin ang pangalan ng mga lalaki at ng mga babae. Kung sino ang mabubunot, silang dalawa ang pagsasamahin sa isang kwarto sa loob ng tatlong araw. And then, we¹ll all see what happens. Pero dinaya namin noon yung kay Ronald at Meg. Puro Ronald at Meg ang mga pangalan na nakalagay sa lottery.

JIGS: (Tatawa) Ang sama ninyo!

YUMI: Kaya nga nakarma na ako e.

JIGS: So is our case, dinaya? O talagang lottery?

YUMI: (Teasing) Ano sa dalawa ang gusto mo?

JIGS: Feeling ko may nagtrip sa¹kin sa barkada e.

YUMI: Excuse me po, dalawa tayong biktima dito. I don¹t see any reason kung bakit tayong dalawa ang sasadyaing biktima this year, unless may crush ka sa¹kin na di ko alam at alam nila (tatawa).

JIGS: Baka ikaw (tatawa).

YUMI: The success rate of this tradition is 100% so far.

JIGS: I was here na the 2nd time. Si Chris at si Cia ang biktima.

YUMI: And last year were Rod and Kay. They¹re getting married kailan? Sa June yata.

JIGS: What do you expect? Ikukulong mo ang isang lalaki at isang babae sa isang kwarto for three days, imposibleng walang mangyari doon!

YUMI: That was exactly my point. (Ngingiti)

JIGS: E kung may madisgrasya?

YUMI: Ano¹ng disgrasya?

JIGS: Alam mo na yun!

Hahawiin ni Yumi ang divider nilang kumot.

YUMI: Ano? Sex? Pa¹no kung magsex sila? Nakakatawa ka naman. Di mo masabi.

JIGS: Ang alin?

YUMI: Ang sex!

JIGS: Hah!

YUMI: Sige nga sabihin mo nga?

JIGS: Para kang tanga. Tumigil ka nga.

YUMI: Shet, Jigs. Graduate ka na totoy ka pa rin!

JIGS: Excuse me?

YUMI: Sabihin mo nga: ³Sex! Sex! Sex! Sex!²

JIGS: Para kang bata, Yumi ha.

YUMI: You used to call me ate Yumi when you were in third year.

JIGS: Well, graduate na po ako, ate Yumi.

Tahimik.

JIGS: Hmmm. I wonder if we¹re gonna last three days.

YUMI: (Teasing) Bakit? Ayaw mo sa¹kin?

Di sasagot si Jigs.

YUMI: We¹re gonna survive this one.

JIGS: What makes you so sure?

YUMI: No offense, Jigs. I honestly find you very attractive pero I¹ve no time for this. Alam mo naman siguro na kaka'

JIGS: Same here.

YUMI: Same here what? Na you find me attractive o you don¹t have time for this? (Matatawa)

Di sasagot si Jigs. Tahimik. Io-on ulit ni Yumi ang CD player at ipagpapatuloy ang zazen. Itatabi ni Jigs ang libro. Nawalan na siya ng ganang magbasa. Pupunta siya sa ref. Bubuksan niya ito.

JIGS: Hah! (Sarcastic) Perfect! Red Wine! How very conducive.

YUMI: May chips ba diyan?

JIGS: Sa awa ng Diyos, may tsibog naman.

Papatayin ni Yumi ang CD player. Tatayo siya at kukuha ng chips sa ibabaw ng ref.

YUMI: Since we¹re gonna be stuck naman with each other for three days, might as well make the best out of it di ba? I-enjoy na lang natin.

JIGS: What do you mean?

YUMI: Get the wine, let¹s have a drink! 50 hours to go na lang and we¹re gonna be the first failure of this tradition.

JIGS: Oo nga. (Kukunin ang wine. Maglalagay sa dalawang baso.) When they chose Cia and Chris, naiintindihan ko pa e. Lalo na sina Rod and Kay. Kung baga, tinulungan lang natin silang umamin sa isa¹t isa. Pero us...

YUMI: Weird ng barkada natin no?

JIGS: To our barkada and our weird traditions!

YUMI: To us, the first failure of this tradition!

Magto-toast sila at iinom.

JIGS: Sige, ate Yumi. Let¹s make our stay here more interesting...

YUMI: What¹s with the ate?

JIGS: Fine...

Bubuksan ni Yumi ang chips. Uupo sila pareho sa sahig para magkwentuhan.

JIGS: Let¹s play twenty questions.

YUMI: Sige! Ano yon?

JIGS: Each of us will have ten questions each. Tatanungin kita, tatanungin mo ako, mga gusto nating malaman sa isa¹t isa. Alternate tayo. Pero the thing here is, you can¹t ask the question that I already asked.

YUMI: That¹s pretty interesting.

JIGS: At bawal magsinungaling.

YUMI: Fair enough. Pero whatever is said inside this room remains in the room. Ok?

JIGS: Of course. You wanna start?

YUMI: No. I want to ask the last question. (Ngingiti at kikindatan si Jigs)

JIGS: Smart move. Game. First question: Ano ang greatest frustration mo sa buhay?

YUMI: Nge. Ang korni naman ng tanong mo. Walang ka-challenge-challenge. Ask me something na mag-iisip naman ako.

JIGS: Simula pa lang e.

YUMI: Sige. Ano nga ba...?

JIGS: Akala ko ba walang ka-challenge-challenge?

YUMI: Wag kang maingay, nag-iisip ako...I¹m a frustrated ballet dancer.

JIGS: Talaga?

YUMI: I took lessons when I was six pero umayaw ako. Wala kasi akong disiplina e. Mas gusto kong makipaglaro sa mga kalaro ko. Pero I really enjoy watching ballet dancers. When I see them dance parati kong naiisip na sana, ako rin. There! Ang dali naman ng tanong mo. Walang thrill.

JIGS: Appetizer lang. Yari ka sa¹kin mamaya.

YUMI: We¹ll see. Ako naman: Did you ever have doubts about your sexuality? I mean, kahit minsan ba, naisip mo na bakla ka?

JIGS: Never.

YUMI: Bilis ng sagot a.

JIGS: Coz I never entertained the idea.

YUMI: Homophobe ka ba?

JIGS: Alternate tayo sa tanungan, di ba?

YUMI: So, not once? Kahit konti? Kahit what if lang?

JIGS: I¹m straight, okay?

YUMI: I¹m not asking if you¹re gay or not. I¹m asking kung...

JIGS: Never nga.

YUMI: We all thought na you were gay. Well at least nung first few months mo sa tropa before you introduced your girlfriend to us.

JIGS: What?! You thought I was gay?!

YUMI: E pa¹no kasi, masyado kang mabait. Ang pogi-pogi mo, pero parang allergic ka sa mga babae. Over ang pagiging gentleman mo. Too good to be true. You have a good body, it seems that you work out pero iniisip namin front mo lang yun. Kadalasan kasi front ng mga bakla ang pagiging maganda ng katawan nila at pagiging sporty...

Tatawa lang si Jigs.

YUMI: So we thought it¹s either that or you were planning to become a priest.

JIGS: What?!

YUMI: Well, you were always this goody-goody person. Pumupunta ka sa chapel. Nangungumpisal, nagsisimba...

JIGS: The way you said it, parang equivalent ang dalawa a.

YUMI: Of course not. I didn¹t mean that!

JIGS: I take my faith seriously. That doesn¹t make me gay!

YUMI: So you did want to become a priest...

JIGS: Hindi rin. Actually, I always wanted to raise a family...and be a father.

Tahimik.

YUMI: So you¹re not gay.

JIGS: No.

YUMI: You never...

JIGS: Ilang beses ka ba ipinanganak? Kulit mo e. It¹s my turn.

YUMI: Homophobe ka no?

JIGS: Hindi kaya!

YUMI: Whatever...

JIGS: Ako na, daya mo naman e.

YUMI: Okay, okay. Shoot me.

JIGS: How do you see yourself five years from now?

YUMI: You expect to win this game? Ang kokorni ng mga tanong mo e.

JIGS: The object of this game is not to win.

YUMI: E ano pa ba?

JIGS: To get to know the other person.

YUMI: Sure. Basta ako, I will win this game. Walang thrill ang isang game kung walang nananalo.

JIGS: Sagot.

YUMI: May time limit ba to? (Tatawa) Wine pa nga.

JIGS: Sabi nga nila: in vino veritas.

Magsasalin si Jigs ng wine.

YUMI: Masarap ang wine, ha? Saan kaya nabili ito? (Iinom) To answer your question, either maging entrepreneur ako, magsisimula ako ng sarili kong botique or bar, o kaya, magiging artista ako sa pelikula.

JIGS: Not bad.

YUMI: Pero mukhang malabo yung stint ko sa movies. Tough ang competition e. Saka mahina ang manager ko. Panay hosting at pictorials ang nakukuhang raket para sa akin. Papalitan ko na nga e. Pag nakaipon ako, baka magtayo na lang ako ng botique.

JIGS: (Magbibiro) Ayaw mo mag-bold?

YUMI: Yuck!

JIGS: Lahat ng gustong mag-artista doon dumadaan.

YUMI: May talent naman ako kahit papano a!

JIGS: Lahat naman ng bold star may talent a! Sa dibdib! (Tatawa)

YUMI: (Hahampasin ng unan si Jigs) Bastos ka talaga! Akala ko goody-goody ka...Hindi ko papatulan ang pagbobold kahit ano¹ng mangyari no! Kahit ganito ako, may respeto pa rin naman ako sa sarili ko.

JIGS: Ganito? Ano¹ng ganito?

Di sasagutin ni Yumi ang tanong.

YUMI: These producers think all the people want is sex, sex, sex! Kaya puro basura ang mga pelikula e. Wine pa nga!

JIGS: (Magsasalin ng wine) Bakit naman botique?

YUMI: Hoy madaya ka na ha? Hindi pa ako lasing. Ako na¹ng magtatanong. Ang korni mo namang magtanong. Bigatan naman natin nang konti...Inom ka muna.

Iinom si Jigs. Magsasalin siya ng bago.

YUMI: Who was your first crush in the barkada?

Tahimik.

YUMI: Haha! Bingo ka no? Bagal mo naman sumagot.

Iinumin ang wine. Magsasalin ng bago.

JIGS: Lalaki o babae?

Tatawa sila pareho.

YUMI: Dapat may time limit ito e.

Tahimik.

JIGS: Hirap naman ng tanong mo.

YUMI: Iyon nga ang maganda e. Para may thrill. As if naman ibo-broadcast ko sa barkada kung sino.

JIGS: Wine pa?

YUMI: Di mo pa sinasagot yung tanong ko, nagtatanong ka na!

Magsasalin ng wine si Jigs kay Yumi.

JIGS: Yung crush ko kasi...siyempre, sino pa ba? E di yung pinakamaganda sa barkada.

YUMI: Nge. Subjective yon no! Para sa¹kin ang pinakagwapo si Joel. Sa babae, si Kay. Para kay Ronald, si Meg...

JIGS: Yung literally na may dating'walang tanung-tanong. Yung kahit sino¹ng tanungin mo sa tropa, objectively, siya ang isasagot.

YUMI: Jigs, twenty questions ang game natin. Hindi guessing game. C¹mon man. Play your own game. Pa¹no na kung truth or dare to e di pahirapan na. Dadalawa na nga lang tayo e.

JIGS: Yung commercial model.

Matitigilan si Yumi.

YUMI: Wine pa nga.

Magsasalin si Jigs. Mag-iisip si Yumi. Iinom. Biglang matatawa.

YUMI: (Tumatawa pa rin) Talaga?

JIGS: Sige, pagtawanan ba?

YUMI: You can say it to my face, I won¹t bite. Bakit hirap na hirap kang sabihin kung sino? Takot kang ma-reject? Parang tanong lang e...Wine pa nga!

JIGS: Okay, 1 point ka na...

YUMI: (Ngiti) Gee...thanks. Flattered naman ako. At kailan naman nangyari ito?

JIGS: Sorry, my turn to ask. (Ngingiti) Who is your crush in the barkada...NOW?

YUMI: E ginaya mo lang yung tanong ko e.

JIGS: Hinde no. May qualifier ako. Ang sabi ko, NOW. Ang tanong mo, first crush ko.

YUMI: Korni pa rin. Alam mo, kung basketball OEto, tambak ka na.

JIGS: Just answer the question.

YUMI: Siyempre wala. I told you, I don¹t have time for these stuff. Kakabreak ko lang di ba?

JIGS: Korni mo namang sumagot.

YUMI: E korni yung tanong e. Pero kung talagang-talagang kailangan kong sumagot...hmmm...teka...sino nga ba? Sino ba¹ng crush material sa barkada? Wala akong maisip e. Ikaw na lang.

JIGS: Yung seryoso naman.

YUMI: Seryoso ako. Ayaw mo yata e. Sige, iba na lang...

JIGS: E napipilitan ka lang e.

YUMI: Uy! Pa¹no ba¹yan? MU na tayo? Crush mo ko, crush kita...yiheee (Tatawa).

JIGS: Dati pa yon no!

YUMI: Ay? Di mo na ko crush? Bakit, na turn-off ka? Ano namang ginawa ko? Tsk. Tsk.

JIGS: Is that your question na?

YUMI: Oy, hinde! Ito naman...di ba pwedeng mag-follow-up?

Iinom ng wine si Jigs.

YUMI: Fine. Here¹s a little juicy question: Describe your first kiss.

JIGS: That¹s not even a question.

YUMI: Arte mo. O: How was your first kiss like?

Matatawa si Jigs.

JIGS: Wet.

YUMI: Yuck!

Magtatawanan sila.

JIGS: Alam mo, aksidente yung first kiss ko. Close kasi kami nung isa kong kaibigan. Pag naggu-goodbye ako sa kanya, parati ko siyang kini-kiss sa noo. E one time, sa gym habang nagpapahinga, nakaupo siya sa sahig. Tinatamad siyang tumayo. So bumaba ako nang konti para halikan siya sa noo kasi pauwi na ako. E siya naman, para maabot ko, medyo tumingala. E sakto, sa lips ko siya nahalikan. Pareho kaming nagulat. Pero di pa kami naghiwalay agad. Weird nga ang feeling e. Parang may glue. Ayaw na namin maghiwalay pareho...

Tawa pa rin si Yumi

YUMI: Awww. Ang sweet naman. Parang sa pelikula. Si Krissy ba OEto?

JIGS: Hindi. Hindi mo siya kilala.

YUMI: So what happened? Nagkatuluyan kayo?

JIGS: Nope.

YUMI: Ha?

JIGS: Ewan ko ba. Complicated kasi yung situation namin e. May boyfriend siya noon. Ako naman, takot pa sa isang relationship. Pero at least, na-discover namin na pareho pala kaming may gusto sa isa¹t isa. Pero hanggang doon na lang.

YUMI: What happened after?

JIGS: We talked about it. We both decided na it wont work. Tapos, bigla na lang, hindi na kami nagkikita. And then, I met you guys, iba na ang barkada ko.

YUMI: Nakakatuwa naman.

JIGS: Ikaw, pa¹no yung first kiss mo?

YUMI: Ikaw ang nagturo sa akin ng game na ito di ba? Bakit ba lagi mong bini-break ang rules? Di mo na pwedeng tanungin yan!

JIGS: Tine-testing ko lang kung lasing ka na. (Iinom ng wine) Okay, naka-warm-up na ako: What was the naughtiest thing you ever did?

YUMI: Yan ang mga tanong! Ano ba¹ng ibig mong sabihin ng naughty?

JIGS: Bahala kang mag-define.

YUMI: Hmmm...marami e...(matatawa) baka maeskandalo ka.

JIGS: Kanina ayaw mo ng korni. Ngayong medyo exciting naman...

YUMI: Eto na...I had two boyfriends at the same time.

JIGS: (Nagulat) Hala.

YUMI: I was with Joel and Zach at the same time.

JIGS: Yikes. Alam ba ni Joel?

YUMI: Kaya nga kami naghiwalay nun e. Nahuli ako (matatawa).

JIGS: Ano namang pumasok sa kukote mo¹t ginawa mo yon, aber?

YUMI: Nag-eexperiment lang ako. E sa type ko sila pareho e. Ano¹ng magagawa ko? Saka para may thrill. Alam mo yon? Yung patago kang nakikipag-date sa isa para di mahuli. Everyday pa akong nakakalibre, kasi, alternate sila! (Tatawa) Akala n¹yo kayo lang mga lalaki ang pwedeng gumawa no¹n?

JIGS: How can you love two guys at the same time?

YUMI: Who said something about love? Walang kinalaman ang love dun. I was...having fun!

JIGS: Nainlove ka na ba, ever?

YUMI: Nakakailang tanong ka na? It¹s my turn.

JIGS: Don¹t you want to answer the question anyway?

YUMI: My turn!

JIGS: Kulang ka pa sa wine. (Tatawa)

Ubos na ang unang wine bottle. Kukuha si Jigs ng isa pa sa ref.

JIGS: Ang bilis nating uminom a.

YUMI: Are you still a virgin?

JIGS: Whoa! Where did that come from?

YUMI: That¹s my fourth question.

JIGS: (Magsasalin ng wine sa mga baso). Ano sa tingin mo?

Ngingiti si Jigs. Tititigan lang siya ni Yumi.

YUMI: Don¹t tell me, wala pang nangyayari sa inyo ni Krissy hanggang ngayon? Ilang taon na ba kayo?

JIGS: Mag-tu-two years na sana next week.

YUMI: So virgin ka pa? I don¹t believe it!

JIGS: Mukha ba akong tarantado?

YUMI: Mukha kang nagpapaiyak ng babae e.

JIGS: Insulto ba yon?

YUMI: Compliment OEyon, tanga.

JIGS: Ah, okay. Thanks.

YUMI: Pero, you mean, you never felt the urge to do it?

JIGS: Alin? Sex?

YUMI: Wow! Nasabi rin niya!

JIGS: Of course I always feel it. Natural lang OEyon sa tao no? Nasa iyo na lang OEyan kung ano¹ng gagawin mo sa urge na yon.

YUMI: E natural naman pala e. Bakit mo pinipigilan? I mean, pag naiihi ka, iihi ka. Pag nagugutom ka, kakain ka. Pareho lang OEyon, di ba?

JIGS: Pag naiihi ka, iihi ka dahil kailangan mong umihi. At hindi ka iihi kahit saan. Pupunta ka sa banyo. Pag nagugutom ka, kakain ka dahil kailangan. At hindi mo kinakain ang lahat ng pagkain na ihain sa iyo. Pag di ka gutom, di ka kakain. Pag di mo gusto yung pagkain, di mo gagalawin. Ang aso, pag may nakitang pagkain diyan, walang tanung-tanong. Lalamon yan.

YUMI: And sex is the same?

JIGS: Lahat ng bagay, nilalagay sa lugar. May context. At least, yun ang nagpaiba sa atin sa aso.

YUMI: Grabe ka namang magsalita. Para mo na ring sinabing lahat ng nakikipagsex, aso ah!

JIGS: Sinasabi ko lang, pag wala sa tamang konteksto, mali.

YUMI: And what is that context?

JIGS: Matanda na tayo. Ayokong maging preachy. Alam na natin OEyan.

Tahimik.

JIGS: Kaso, kahit alam na natin, minsan di pa rin natin ginagawa.

Tahimik.

JIGS: Masarap e. Sino ba¹ng ayaw nun?

Tahimik.

YUMI: (Medyo nairita) So feeling mo santo ka at dapat kang i-congratulate for being a virgin!

JIGS: Sinasabi ko lang ang pinaniniwalaan ko. Ineexplain ko lang kung bakit di ko ginagawa. May kanya-kanya tayong dahilan. Di ko pinipilit kahit kanino ang mga paniniwala ko...No need to get so cross about it, Yumi.

Tahimik.

JIGS: It¹s not about being a virgin or not. It¹s about putting things into their proper places.

YUMI: I¹m not arguing with you.

JIGS: Me neither. I¹m just answering your questions.

Matagal na katahimikan.

Ngingiti si Jigs. Titignan niya si Yumi na medyo nairita sa nakaraang train of conversation nila. Magsasalin siya ng wine para kay Yumi.

JIGS: Nasobrahan ka na yata sa wine e. (Tatawa) You still wanna go on with the game? Nine pa lang tayo, eleven more to go. (Ngingiti)

YUMI: Shoot me.

JIGS: Who was your first lay?

YUMI: (Hahampasin ng unan si Jigs) Ang bastos mo talaga! So inaassume mo na hindi na ako virgin?

JIGS: E sabi mo kasi, walang thrill ang game pag walang nananalo e. So I guess I¹m winning. Saka wala naman akong inimply na ganun a! I¹m just hitting two birds with one stone. Kasi kung virgin ka, e di simple lang ang sagot: wala. Kung hindi naman, e di sino?

YUMI: Ang daya mo.

JIGS: Akala ko ba ayaw mo ng korning tanong.

YUMI: You think I¹ll answer that after giving your sermon, Father Jigs?

JIGS: Ano ka ba? Inexplain ko lang yung personal reasons ko. Kung ano man ang sa iyo, I¹ll respect them as well as I know you respect mine. I¹m no saint. I¹m just trying to get to know you better. (Ngingiti)

YUMI: How do you do that?

JIGS: Alin?

YUMI: I should have walked out on you kanina pa pero the way you say things...parang bumabaliktad sa¹yo...makes you more...charming. Kung ibang tao ka siguro, di na kita kakausapin.

JIGS: You can¹t walk out. We¹re locked here for three days except for meals.

YUMI: So I¹m forced to like you para di masira ang vacation ko. (Ngingiti)

JIGS: You don¹t have to answer my question if you don¹t want.

YUMI: I guess I¹ll be honest with you as you were honest with me...

Tahimik. Iinom ng wine si Yumi.

YUMI: Di mo siya kilala. His name was Robert. He was my first boyfriend. It was Senior Prom Night. Alam mo na...typical senior prom story. Everyone wants to lose it on prom night. Everyone thinks na pag prom night, it was something special. We went out sa hall nang maaga. We made out sa kotse niya. One thing led to the other. Tapos, yun...yun na. We went back just in time for the awarding of the prom queen. Guess what, I won pa. (Mahinang tawa)

JIGS: What was it like?

YUMI: Now that I look back, it isn¹t as special as I thought it was. Pero it was different then. Back then, we were just led by our passions. Alam mo yon? Andun ka na. Hormones raging wild. Passions and Ideals are confused. Akala mo love, yun pala, curious ka lang pala. Akala mo yun na yon. Akala mo you are in-love at lahat ng gawin mo tama. Lahat ng gawin mo perfect. Everything was magical...well, almost.

JIGS: Almost...?

YUMI: Sa next question mo na yan. Ako na.

JIGS: (Pabiro) Wine pa? Kulang ka pa yata e.

YUMI: Nilalasing mo ko no? May balak ka sa¹kin no? (Tatawa)

JIGS: Is that your question? Sasagutin ko na. (Tatawa)

YUMI: Engot. Hindi yon. Here¹s something na curious lang ako. Kasi I¹ve been hearing things...saka you¹ve hinted on it na rin kanina...Are you still with Krissy?

JIGS: Hindi na.

YUMI: Since when?

JIGS: Two, maybe three weeks ago?

YUMI: Sino¹ng nakipag-break?

JIGS: Pareho kami.

YUMI: Why?

JIGS: Maraming dahilan, actually. Naisip na lang namin na it won¹t work. Isa na do¹n, magkaiba kami ng gustong mangyari sa buhay. Magkaiba kami ng mga pinaniniwalaan.

YUMI: Like what?

JIGS: Marami.

YUMI: At ngayon mo lang nalaman iyon after two years with her?

JIGS: People change, Yumi.

Tahimik.

JIGS: Right before graduation, she asked me to move in with her.

YUMI: Talaga?

JIGS: Sabi niya, doon na naman din daw papunta ang relasyon namin. Might as well practice na raw for the real thing. Tutal, she¹s working na naman, ako naman bagong graduate, we should try out na raw living together if it¹ll work for us.

YUMI: Natakot ka sa arrangement?

JIGS: Hindi naman sa natakot. If you love someone, ano pa¹ng ikakatakot mo, di ba?

YUMI: E bakit umayaw ka?

JIGS: It¹s just that, it¹s not my thing.

YUMI: Sabi na nga ba e, bakla ka no? Sinasayang mo ang opportunities! (Matatawa)

JIGS: Hindi ako oportunista. At lalong hindi ako bakla.

YUMI: Fine.

JIGS: Naisip ko lang na hindi pa pala ako handa sa mga ganitong bagay. Wala pa sa isip ko ang gano¹n. Na-shock siguro ako sa reality na iyon na nga ang next step sa relationship namin. I mean, two years of being together and knowing each other, we¹re practically ready to get married, if you know what I mean. Pero I realized, I¹m not ready for any of these. Narealize ko how immature I am. Na iba yung ideals ko two years ago sa ideals ko ngayon. I need to mature some more to get into this thing'I mean, getting married. Diyos ko, ilang taon lang ba ako...

YUMI: Maturity has nothing to do with age.

JIGS: But it has a lot to do with time.

Tahimik.

JIGS: So I thought, bakit kailangan ng practice mode? Ibig sabihin, pag sumablay kami, split na kami? Live like a couple minus the commitment? Pa¹no pag nawala na yung magic? Goodbye na?

Iinom ng wine si Jigs.

JIGS: Kung kasal na, kasal na. Wala nang practice. I think that¹s the real cowardice. Yung i-try muna natin kung it will work kasi takot kayo na baka hindi maging successful ang outcome. Saan na napunta ang excitement ng buhay? Kaya nga kayo in-love, para sabay kayong humarap sa totoong buhay, sa hirap at ginahawa, di ba? (Matatawa) Hindi yung pagpapraktisan muna ninyo para siguradong ginhawa lang.

Magkikibit-balikat lang si Jigs.

YUMI: Are you always like that?

JIGS: Like what?

YUMI: So cerebral in everything. Kahit pagdating sa relationships.

JIGS: Life is too precious para lang daanin sa trial and error.

Ngingiti si Jigs. Tahimik.

YUMI: So, No hard feelings?

JIGS: Friends pa rin kami. She still calls me up nga sa bahay e.

YUMI: That¹s nice.

JIGS: Kayo, bakit kayo nagbreak ni Carlo?

YUMI: That¹s your sixth na ha?

JIGS: Sure.

YUMI: Alam mo, ironic para sa akin yung break-up namin ni Carlo. And the funny thing was, it was about...sex. Uy, sa atin lang ito ha?

JIGS: Of course.

YUMI: Kasi nga, I was looking for that magic nga di ba? I wanted to be in a relationship na special naman. So of all the boyfriends I had, sa kanya lang ako walang sexual relationship. As in nag-aabstain talaga ako. Kasi parang naisip ko, para magkaroon naman ng meaning yung ³making love² di ba? Parang, dapat di mo parating ginagawa, at ginagawa mo lang when you are sincere with yourself and with your partner. So I was investing muna emotionally. And I was actually starting to care about him. Yung, hindi ko na iniisip yung sarili ko. Yung siya lang ang inaalala ko. Akala ko perfect na...

JIGS: Ano¹ng nangyari?

YUMI: Patunayan ko raw na mahal ko siya. Magbigay daw ako ng proof. Pagbigyan ko raw siya. Sabi ko sa kanya, hindi pa ba sapat na proof yon? Na I¹m saving myself for that right moment, that special moment between us? Alam mo¹ng ginawa? Nilayasan ako!

JIGS: You deserve someone better.

YUMI: Talaga!

YUMI: Isipin mo, kung kelan naman I grew tired of meaningless sex, when I¹m looking for the real thing, saka naman mawawala. Ang ironic ng buhay no?

JIGS: That¹s the way we must learn.

YUMI: Alam mo, kung tutuusin, never ko pang na-experience yung tunay na mag make-love. And I had to go all through those relationships para lang ma-realize yun. At least, ngayon, alam ko na ang hinahanap ko.

Iinom ng wine.

YUMI: Ikaw ba, importante sa¹yo na virgin ang mapapangasawa mo? How do you see virginity ba?

JIGS: Alam mo, di ko pa napag-isipan OEyan. Pero now that you¹ve mentioned it...It doesn¹t matter kung virgin ang mapangasawa ko o hindi. Of course I value virginity a lot. I treat it as the only real gift I could give to my wife to be. Imaginin mo na lang di ba, kung wife ko ang una ko. It¹s like the perfect wedding gift I could give to
her. Pero kung siya hindi na virgin, I wouldn¹t care. As long as mahal ko siya. Kasi I don¹t expect her to give me the same gift. I don¹t do something because I expect people to do the same to me. Ibigay niya sa akin ang sarili niya nang buong-buo, sapat na sa akin OEyon. Masaya na ako sa ganoon.

YUMI: (Mapapangiti si Yumi.) You know, that¹s the nicest thing I ever heard from a guy. That¹s why I always enjoy talking to you. You always say the nicest things.

JIGS: Wow. Salamat. E ikaw, is making love to you equal to love?

YUMI: I always took sex and love as opposite ideas. I mean, after the first time na...you know...sa Senior prom. Kasi afterwards, we broke up na ni Robert. Tapos naisip ko, yun na ba yung love? Baka hindi love yung naramdaman ko. Baka napagkamalan ko lang siyang love. I was just after the pleasure of intimacy. And then I felt empty. So empty. That¹s why I wanted to change. I wanted to believe in ³making love.² And I¹m still looking for it. Yung magic. Yung feeling mo, tao ka pala. I never felt that kahit isang beses. Men have penetrated my body but never my soul. And I wanted that. I wanted someone to touch my soul. To ³make love² to my soul through my body. Pero siguro, naging numb na¹ko sa dami ng relasyong pinagdaanan ko. Hindi ko alam kung mararanasan ko pa iyon. That¹s why I envy you.

Tahimik.

YUMI: Sa tingin mo may pag-asa pa ako?

JIGS: You still have your soul...(Ngingiti)

Tahimik.

YUMI: With whom would you want to experience it?

JIGS: Of course, sa asawa ko.

YUMI: I mean, someone in particular. Take it as my seventh question. So give a name.

JIGS: A name? Hindi ko alam. Basta kung sino ang magiging asawa ko.

Tahimik. Magkikibit-balikat si Yumi. Iinom ng wine.

JIGS: Well, I always thought na it was Krissy. And then, it was just gone. Of course I loved her. And I still do. Pero the magic was just gone after we both found out na magkaiba kami ng mga prinsipyo sa buhay.

Tahimik.

JIGS: My turn?

YUMI: Shoot me.

JIGS: Tell me something...a secret. Yung wala kahit isang nakakaalam.

Matagal na katahimikan.

JIGS: You trust me naman di ba?

YUMI: Well, you¹ve earned it, alright.

JIGS: Saka wala akong tinatago sa¹yo. Sinagot ko lahat ng tanong mo as honestly as I could. (Ngingiti)

YUMI: I uhm...

JIGS: Yes...?

YUMI: I need more wine.

Magsasalin si Jigs ng wine.

JIGS: Take your time. We have less than fifty hours to go.

Iinom ng wine si Yumi.

YUMI: I¹ll tell you something no one in the world knows except one other person. And that person probably forgot all about me already.

JIGS: (Pabiro) What? You had sex with a stranger?

YUMI: Ano ka ba?

JIGS: Biro lang. Seryoso na.

YUMI: Promise ha? Hindi ito lalabas.

JIGS: Promise.

YUMI: If this goes out, I will hunt you kahit sa libingan mo. Huhukayin kita at papatayin kita ulit.

JIGS: Mamatay man ako ngayon.

YUMI: Okay...(Pause) I...I was with Joel then... (Magiging mas seryoso ang tono niya) ...and Zach. I wasn¹t really with Zach, I was just going out with him pag wala si Joel, alam mo na...making out and stuff...Well, anyway, I was kinda serious din naman with Joel that time. Joel and I were...you know...doing it. And...

JIGS: And...?

YUMI: Uhm...I...uhm...I got pregnant.

JIGS: What?

Tahimik. Iinom ng wine si Yumi.

YUMI: I uhm...shit. Hindi ko naman talaga ginusto e. Uhm...Two months akong delayed...then I took that test. I found out na buntis nga ako...and Joel found out about Zach (maluha-luha na) and I didn¹t know what to say, you know? Maniniwala ba naman sa akin si Joel na naaliw lang ako kay Zach? Na I didn¹t really love him? Na wala lang iyon? And so he broke up with me and...I..uhm...I was afraid and uhm... (Magsisimula siyang magbreak-down)

JIGS: It¹s okay...

YUMI: I uhm...hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko, Joel left me. I wanted to tell him about the baby to make him come back but I don¹t think he¹d believe me after the thing with Zach...and...my parents are gonna kill me if...shit. (iiyak)

JIGS: (lalapit kay Yumi para i-console ito) Ssshhh...you don¹t have to tell me this if it upsets you...

YUMI: And so I went to a clinic...(hahagulgol) I didn¹t mean to, Jigs. I wasn¹t myself then. And I felt so afraid. So alone...

JIGS: Tahan na. Ssshhh...

Iiyak lang si Yumi kay Jigs. Yayakapin ni Jigs si Yumi.

JIGS: Alam ba to ni Joel?

YUMI: How can I tell him? The only other person na nakakaalam ay yung duktor sa clinic. God...(iiyak) Oh God...

JIGS: It¹s alright...

Hihimasin ni Jigs ang likod ni Yumi. Patatahanin niya ito. Matagal silang nakaganito lang.

Matagal na katahimikan.

YUMI: Can you get me my yosi?

Tatayo si Jigs. Pupunta sa may side table sa tabi ng kama. Kukunin ang Yosi ni Yumi. Magsisindi siya ng isa at iaabot kay Yumi.

YUMI: Thanks...

Matagal na katahimikan.

YUMI: If we were...if we were the last two people on earth, would you consider doing it with me?

JIGS: Doing what?

YUMI: Alam mo na...

JIGS: Alin? (Teasing ngingiti)

YUMI: Gago mo. (Ngingiti)

JIGS: Ngumiti rin.

YUMI: So? Would you?

JIGS: Alin nga? Di mo masabi no? Bakit di mo masabi? (Pagtatawanan si Yumi) Sabihin mo nga: Sex! Sex! Sex! Sex!

YUMI: Shut up nga!

JIGS: That¹s your eight na, ha?

YUMI: I lost count. Answer it.

JIGS: Why not?

Hihithit ng yosi si Yumi. Tahimik. Sasandal si Yumi sa balikat ni Jigs.

JIGS: If you could be something else, what would you be?

YUMI: I dunno...maybe a violin...yeah. Violin siguro.

JIGS: Bakit?

YUMI: I always saw the relationship of a violin and its player as very intimate. Pag tumutugtog ang violinist, ang nakikita ko at naririnig ko, he strokes the soul of the instrument and the instrument penetrates the soul of the player. Para silang nagmi-make love. Di ba? Very sexy, very intimate, very sublime. Di ba? Pareho silang sincere
sa isa¹t isa. Dahil kung hindi sila sincere, walang music na mabubuo. The violin surrenders her body to her player, her whole body and her whole soul, in full trust and sincerity. Di ba, compared to the sound of the other instruments, ang tunog ng violin parang isang naked woman? A naked woman in surrender? I want to be a violin. I want to be stroked in the soul. I want to make sincere music. I want to experience the sound of love.

Tahimik.

JIGS: Lalim nun ah. (Ngingiti)

YUMI: Pa¹no mo malalamang in-love ka na?

JIGS: Paano? I don¹t think there¹s a formula to that. Basta malalaman mo na lang. I mean, ilang beses lang ba nangyari sa akin yon? I¹d like to believe na yun na nga yon...yung kay Krissy...

YUMI: Kwento mo nga...paano mo narealize dati na mahal mo nga si Krissy?

JIGS: Alam mo nakakatawa...korni actually. Babalik na naman ako sa pagiging korni nito e. Di ba ayaw mo sa korni.

YUMI: Sige na. Hindi na kita aasarin.

JIGS: I heard bells.

YUMI: Ano?

JIGS: Seryoso. Bigla na lang, habang nag-uusap kami, may narinig na lang akong bells, tapos music. Ewan ko kung iniimagine ko lang yon pero yun ang nangyari. Nakakatawa nga e. Parang kanta ng Beatles.

YUMI: Seryoso ka ba?

JIGS: O baka naman nagkataon noong oras na yon, may nagkakantahan sa kung saan sa school. Basta may narinig akong bells. Tapos napangiti ako. Pagtingin ko sa mata niya, iba na ang nakikita ko. Hindi ko na siya nakita as kabarkada lang. Biglang parang may magic. Hindi ko ma-explain. Baduy pero ganun. Tapos I just seized the moment. Umamin ako. A week later, kami na.

YUMI: Korni nga. (Matatawa)

JIGS: Korni talagang pakinggan. Pero pag nandun ka na. Pag naranasan mo na, feeling mo, hindi na korni.

Ngingiti si Yumi. Tahimik.

YUMI: Alam mo, may times na parang tunog violin ang boses mo. O lasing lang ako?

Tahimik.

JIGS: I¹m into my last question.

Iaangat ni Yumi ang ulo niya.

YUMI: Shoot me. Better make it good.

JIGS: If you were again to be the next victim of this tradition, if you were to be locked up in this room again...who would you want the next guy to be?

YUMI: (Mag-iisip) I want someone whom I could talk to... Yung makukwentuhan ko ng mga sikreto ko. Yung may sense makipag-usap. Yung may laman. The violin player who¹d stroke my strings...not even. Yung mapapatunog niya ang strings ko without even touching them. (Tahimik) Lumuluwag na ang dila ko...kung anu-ano na ang nasasabi ko. (Ngingiti)

Tititigan lang ni Jigs si Yumi. Tahimik.

YUMI: Siyempre yung masarap kausap.

Tahimik. Hindi makatingin si Yumi.

YUMI: Yung kahit habambuhay wala kaming gawin kundi mag-usap... I think it¹s better than making love.

Mapapatingin si Yumi kay Jigs.

YUMI: Gosh I want to kiss you so badly.

Matitigilan siya.

YUMI: I can¹t believe I just said that.

Tahimik. Titignan niya ulit si Jigs.

YUMI: Don¹t you want to kiss me?

Pause. Titignan siya ni Jigs sa mata.

JIGS: Is that your last question?

PICTURES OF LOVE

Love this pix so much!Hope to be with this guy Forever!

TATTOED ON MY MIND

GOSH!!! can't get over with this song!!!

Makapiling ka by spongecola

someone dedicate this song to me.
Just want to say thank you and goodluck!!*_^

lonely????????

don't know why you are lonely right now but i know when you see Paricce pix it will lightens up your day.cheer up!!!!

happy birthday Donald!!!!

you'll always be my one and only crush(anu daw).*winks*
wishing you all the best in this world especially in your lovelife and singing career.no one can sing as good as you so keep it up!!!

i hart this guy!!!!

letting go

Letting go into who you really are is the greatest gift you can give the world. As you let go of problems, judgments, resentments, and most importan

antly, all the beliefs and messages that are not your highest truth, you become free to express your authentic self with others and share your true gifts with the world.

Imagine a world where all the people have let go of their old baggage - past conditioning, limiting programming, judgments and resentments - and they are light, loving, accepting and joyful. Imagine the connection between people and the synergy within groups, communities and nations.

Letting go involves releasing the past and starting fresh in the present moment. It means trusting that you are more than your roles, beliefs and stories. Many are reluctant to let go because they fear they will have nothing left. They cling to problems, unhealthy situations, and outworn roles and relationships because it feels safe in its familiarity. They don’t know who they are underneath. They haven’t experienced their true, authentic Self bursting with energy, waiting to express its true nature in the world.

So how does one touch into this state of freedom where they can be themselves, uninhibited, light and joyful? By letting go, bit by bit. By first noticing where they hold on, where they resist, and where they struggle, and then slowly, gently, releasing the hold and embracing what’s underneath.

Practice Letting Go
Get into the habit of letting go of stress, tension, problems, the past, resentments, false beliefs and anything that limits you from feeling free in life. Spend at least 5 minutes each day at the beginning, middle or end of your day with your eyes closed, centered within, doing the following letting go practices.

♦ Focus on simply letting go of your breath. Let your breath fill your lungs naturally and then focus on the breath leaving your lungs. Notice the release, feel the relief. Notice how naturally your lungs refill. Letting go of your breath doesn’t mean you stop breathing, it allows life to continue flowing.

♦ Let go of stress and tension. Notice any tension in your body - where are you holding? Simply let go of holding and watch the tension release. Scan your whole body to find another place where you are holding and continue letting go until your whole body is relaxed.

♦ Let go of thinking. Listen to your thoughts and then let them go. Watch as they arise, let them pass through, and then tune into the spaciousness that surrounds them and the stillness behind them.

♦ Let go of resentments. Carrying resentments around is like carrying someone else’s baggage on your back. If there’s nothing useful for you in the luggage, why carry it around? Notice any judgments or resentments you have towards yourself or others and imagine placing them on the ground. Feel the relief from doing this. Now imagine walking away into freedom.

♦ Let go of old stories. What stories do you keep retelling that locks you into repeating them in your life? Be willing to explore the depth and expansiveness of who you are underneath past roles and stories. Imagine taking them off like a piece of clothing or stepping out and away from them like leaving a room. Tune into who you are without your stories.

♦ Let go of limiting beliefs. What beliefs hold you back from expressing yourself and living your life freely? Bring them to your awareness so you can let them go. Dig deep into the core beliefs such as not being good enough, not having love, not being big enough and so on. Look at these beliefs and know they are just untrue messages in your space. Be willing to release them and discover your truth underneath.

creating-sunlightAs you practice letting go your body will be more energized, your mind more peaceful and your soul free to shine through and light your way in life.

Are you ready to let go?

pc of junk by hannah

a foggy afternoon,
rain dropping like a scream.
As my heart beating in pain.
My memory shouting for your name.

As i cherished the days we were together,
I could not help but gave thanks to the Giver.
For once He had given me a chance.
To love;to love you at once.

Like leaves of the tree in Autumn
We fly away from each other arms.
My only prayer to the creator
He will guide and bless you well.

May happiness grant unto you always,
May our memories be the strength,
For a new story we will be creating,
As my journey with you is about to end.

Let me take care of you somewhere else,
In a place where you will be mine alone,
Here from the deep of my being.
Deep inside I'll keep you forever.
this is my silent goodbye..

music,tv,movie quotes....

We all go a little mad sometimes. Haven't you? ~ Alice In Wonderland

You ask me about regret? Let me tell you a few things about regret, my darling. There is no end to it. You cannot find the beginning of the chain that brought us from there to here. Should you regret the whole chain, and the air in between, or each link separately, as if you could uncouple them? Do you regret the beginning which ended so badly, or just the ending itself? ~ White Oleander

The truth is no matter who broke your heart, or how long it takes for it to heal, you won't get through it without your friends. ~ Sex In The City

Sometimes you can cry until there is nothing left wet in you. You can scream and curse to where your throat rebels and ruptures. You can pray all you want to whatever god you think will listen. And still, it makes no difference. It goes on, with no sign as to when it might release you. And you know that if it ever did relent... it would not be because it cared. ~ Johnny the Homicidal Maniac


Without pain, there would be no suffering, without suffering we would never learn from our mistakes. To make it right, pain and suffering is the key to all windows, without it, there is no way of life. ~ Angelina Jolie

I have been thinking a lot about growing up, and all of the relationships and broken hearts we go through. I always wonder how many times I said "I love you" to someone and knew I didn't mean it. It makes me think about all of the people that have said they love me and didn't mean it as well, and I get really pissed off, because I hate when people lie. I mean, if they were lying to get in my pants, that is one thing, but just for the sake of dragging this heart through the mud. I don't think anyone has ever used me for my body, and that really, really hurts. It really does. I want to be a booty call. Isn’t that what we all want out of life; to be someone's "go to" sex slave? I forgot what I was talking about. Oh yeah, Love. Love sucks. ~ Jaret (Again BMXer I think)

Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be. ---Sex and the City

Don't force attraction. --- Sex and the City

Don't stay because you think "it will get better". You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better. ~ Sex In The City

There's only one "reason" a man dumps you; he doesn't want you. --- Sex In The City

an inspiring words of wisdom to live by

Somebody once told me that "Finding the right person is
> very hard and very wrong....it is best to be the right
>person for the one you love and start from there... you'll
> always end up disappointed when you set standards and
> define a "right person" for you...and don't rush things....coz
> somewhere somehow God is preparing somebody for you."
> You can never be perfect...the person you love can never > be
> perfect...but both of you can be perfect through love and
> prayers,
> and your love can be perfect through the both of you. But,
> no relationship is complete without God..... that's why we
> have marriage..it's a bond not only between you and your
> loved one....but also with God.
> Our relationships fail not because (s)he's not the right >
> person....
> it's because we expected too much and we decided on our own....
> let God do the work...you may call it waiting time....but while
> you
> are waiting...pray. Let God guide you always...He knows >
> better.
> No, He knows best.
> Love is not what you think it is.... Sometimes we mistakenly
> feel that our first relationship will be our last. Because we >
> are
> overwhelmed with joy and romance, we forget to learn the
> meaning of true love. Some are saying that love is unselfish,
> blind, unconditional or simply denying oneself for the sake
> of someone very important in our life. Others are saying
> love is immortal and can never be defined. When we
> think we're in love the first thing we almost wanted the
> whole world to know is that our love for someone very
> special can never be taken away from us. We say this
> phrase "You are the most wonderful gift from GOD I have
> ever received..." After a terrible fight or sometimes even a
> petty quarrel we then say "You are the biggest mistake i've >
> ever
> made for my entire life...!!!!". Now, how do you say and spell
> the
> word L-O-V-E? Are you really deeply into it?.
>
> Nobody can tell what love really is until experience speaks >
> and
> whispers right into our ears. Most of the time, these love
> promises
> like "Forever, Till Death do us apart, etc." would end up >
> "Never"
> and "We should part ways, I'm no longer happy with you! My love
> for you is DEAD!!!". Many times we thought after having
> committed
> to someone and your trust to one another freezes down to > zero
>degree "S/He ain't the right one. I should probably wait for
> the right
>one to come." But the big question anyone could not answer is
> "Is
> she/he the right one?" and "When is the right time?" That made
> us
> stick to whom we are with. Will you always be waiting for the
> right
> person to come and the right time to commit? A big YES is the
> answer.
> Don't be in a hurry to get into a relationship because you can
> never
> find love if you insist that you are already into it. Try to
> find time
> to really
> understand your real feelings, to know who you really are, and
> what
> you really want in a relationship. You're right, There is no
> such thing
> as a perfect relationship, but there's a compatible partnership
> that
> goes
> along with it. If you already knew that you're too big to fit
> into a
> small
> sized t-shirt, don't give it a try. You'll probably break it
> and pay
> for the
> damages you have made. If you knew and felt that the
> relationship will
> not last, don't go deeper into it. You'll just suffer the
> consequences
> and live like hell the rest of your life. It's really hard to
> say
>goodbye
> though, but you can't make it any better by just pretending you
> still
> have the same feelings. Try to let go and give yourself a chance
> to
> live life to the fullest. Give yourself a chance to grow and
> give your
> heart a much needed attention. Then you will find that you have
> made
> the right decision it all by yourself. More frequently than
> not, we
> all
> act
> in a hypocritical manner for some reason.
> We call it love when we can't leave someone and see them crying
>as
> we try to let go. We are wrong, its just pity. We call it love
> when
> we're
> too attached and think that losing the one we love will somehow
> make
> us weak and unable to face the storms of life. We
> misunderstood, its
> just that we're too much dependent to them. We call it love
> when we
>give our whole life to them, the wholeness of us and imagined
> that if
> they
> leave no one would accept us and our past. We are mistaken,
> its just
> insecurity. But no matter what the definition is, the truth
> still
> remains that
> love isn't something you can buy nor beg. It is real and
>existing. You
> can't touch it but you can feel it in your heart. You can't find
> it,
> but
> it
>will knock before you when you least expect it to come. It can
> make
> you the happiest soul in heaven, but don't forget that it also
> can make
> you the most miserable person in the whole galaxy.
>
> "Contentment is not the fulfillment of what you want, it is the
> realization
> of how much you already have."

letting go...

Perhaps the most terrible pain we may face in life is to lose someone near and dear to us. It may seem as if the pain of our loss will utterly destroy us. It may seem so terrible that we cannot want to go on living without them.

In whatever manner we become parted from our loved one, whether they most go to seek their fortunes, or are taken away from us by duty, whether they leave us by choice or are taken by death, we may feel painfully alone and inconsolable in our grief. But we must go on. To do anything less than to hold our chins high and meet the new empty day with courage and confidence in ourselves only demeans the truth and beauty of the love we shared with the child, parent, lover or friend whom we are missing.

Love is so far beyond all other joys in life that our entire lives may seem to be eclipsed in the moment we lose someone we dearly love. What would be the worth and joy of love if this were not so? Love is valued beyond measure, it is so infinite in regard to the depths it penetrates us to reach our soul. Love is a liberating force that frees us from fear and pain and worry and loss. Love is an uplifting force that motivates us to strive to be our very best. Love is a binding force that knits us warmly to our family, friends, communities and world. But love does not complete us or make us whole.

So when we face the terrible moment when we lose someone we dearly love we seem to lose so much more than just the person we love, we seem to lose parts of ourselves as well. Our grief goes beyond the outward loss of the person we love and encompasses an inner loss of ourselves, the loss of parts of us that blossomed in the gifted sight of our loved one’s eyes.

So we must let go. Whether we are letting go for only minutes, hours, days, or eternity, we must simply let go of all of our attachments to anyone we love. When we release ourselves from those attachments, whether in a healthy relationship, or in a relationship that has failed, or in circumstances in which we simply cannot remain together in our lives, we are actually enabling ourselves to experience the love we believe we are missing. We can never go back to the past to find our love for it is always in the present. When we release ourselves from our attachments to those we love we enable ourselves to experience the effulgence of our love completely without hesitation or reservation so that our lives once more are sweeter and full of comfort and joy.

So let go to let in the love that is real. Accept today for what it is, an opportunity to find everything you may seek in life and to love and be loved by everyone you meet. And who knows? With your head held up and your eyes wide open someone very special may appear that you may otherwise have missed. So let go to let love return to your heart. Just let go.

Footnote:for pam

treat the girls right

When she walks away from you mad===[ Follow her]

When she stare's at your lips===[ Kiss her ]

When she pushes you or hit's you===[ Grab her and don’t let go ]

When she start's cursing at you===[ Kiss her and tell her you love her ]

When she's quiet===[ Ask her what’s wrong]

When she ignore's you===[ Give her your attention ]

When she pulls away==[ Pull her back ]

When you see her at her worst===[ Tell her she's beautiful ]

When you see her start crying==[Just hold her and don’t say a word ]

When you see her walking==[ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind ]

When she's scared===[ Protect her ]

When she lay's her head on your shoulder===[ Tilt her head up and kiss her ]

When she steal's your favorite hat==[ Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night]

When she tease's you===[ Tease her back and make her laugh ]

When she doesn’t answer for a long time===[ reassure her that everything is okay ]

When she looks at you with doubt==[ Back yourself up with the TRUTH ]

When she say's that she like's you==[ she really does more than you could understand ]

When she grab's at your hands===[ Hold her's and play with her fingers ]

When she bump's into you===[ bump into her back and make her laugh ]

When she tells you a secret===[ keep it safe and untold ]

When she looks at you in your eyes===[ don’t look away until she does ]

WHEN SHE MISSES YOU===[ SHES HURTING INSIDE]

When you break her heart===[ the pain NEVER really goes away ]

When she says its over===[ she STILL wants you to be hers ]

When she repost this bulletin===[ she wants you to read it ]

- Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything

-DON'T let her have the last word

-always call her when u know somethings wrong

-Pretty and beautifull is soo much better...NOT HOT

- Say you love her more than she could ever love you

- Argue that she is the best girl ever

- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go

- When she says she's ok don’t believe it, talk with her

- because 10 yrs later she'll remember you

- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her

- Call her before you sleep and after you wake up

- Treat her like she's all that matters to you

- Tease her and let her tease you back

-Stay up all night with her when she's sick

- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid

- Give her the world

- LET HER WEAR YOUR CLOTHES

- When she's bored and sad, hang out with her

- Let her know she's important

- Kiss her in the pouring rain

- When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is;"Who's butt am I kicking today baby?"

________got this on my friendster bulletin_________
it's really true..this is how guys should treat us girls..*winks*